Last night I had a mini-panic attack and spent about 30 minutes writing a list of everything I need to do before we leave on Wednesday. My hope was that if I had it all written down I could stop worrying about forgetting tasks and just get on with completing them. And it did relieve the anxiety I’ve felt about forgetting to do an important thing. But the length of the list overwhelms me, especially when I spend an hour doing something important and it never even made it on the list.
My kids are also around making messes, and right now I don’t have time to clean up new messes on top of all the old ones.
It makes sense that I’m panicked. I know why I feel this way, but that doesn’t make it any easier for me to accept the feelings and just move on. Right now I’m working out in the hopes that some endorphins will do me good.
The good news is that we leave Thursday morning, our guests don’t come until Monday afternoon, and my husband is around until Sunday. He can do the stuff that doesn’t get done. I can also write a note for the cleaning lady to pay closer attention to certain areas if I’m not able to clean them in the way I wanted, like the entry way.
But then I do dumb shit like tweak my shoulder so badly that I can’t turn my neck and I have to make a last minute appointment with the chiropractor (all the way down by my work) that only kind of makes it feel better. True story. It killed my productivity this afternoon.
Or I don’t realize I just cut my hand and get blood on the new WHITE bed skirt I’m loading into the dryer, so I have to scrub out the stain and send it back through the washer to rinse and spin it again before I can put it on the bed. Another true story.
Despite the detours, I still managed to cross quite a few things off my list today, but I worry it’s not enough. Tomorrow I tackle the garage, and once that’s done I hope I’ll feel better about everything else.
I’ve already started a list of the things my husband is going to do. It’s definitely a relief to have him as a back up.
T minus 2 days to get this place in shape!
Will you be back before you head to Columbia. How quickly did your house rent out? We have been thinking about renting ours out when we travel mainly throughout the fall but depending on how quickly it rents perhaps we could get it listed and rented for our end of summer plans too! So exciting you are almost there!
We will be back before Colombia, for about two weeks. My house rented out relatively quickly? I put it up months before we would be gone, and got some hits pretty quickly. Others took about a month. I think how quickly your place would rent out would depend on the location and time of year. It’s probably worth a shot. I would go onto AirBnB to see the process entails and see if it seems reasonable.
HUGE detours!!!!
Sending supportive thoughts. Keep hanging in. Then BIG REST while away on this trip. You are achieving SOOOO MUCH!!!!! Huge audience applause!!!!!
Thanks. I’m deep in the thick of the garage right now. SO MUCH WORK to do in there. But I do think I’ll finish today.
SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! You are so tough. And it is thoroughly well known that it is FAR harder in one’s own home than in anyone else’s home to stay focused and really triage and clean. Emotions get in the way and are super distracting.
On plane rest, shut eyes, let the smalls zone to their hearts content on movies on kid’s channel. Do take snacks for them and empty non-spill water bottles so they can be filled on other side of TSA with free water. I hope you are being met at airport by family who can help with kids!!!!
Wow, your progress sounds amazing for your tight timeline! Hang in there!! Hope your trip is amazing and so happy you have a back-up in your husband for at least the last bit.
I only made this progress because my mom helped. She did in two days what it would have taken me 4-5 days to do (and not as well). I’m not sure what I’m even going to do when I get on the plane and can sit down for four straight hours.
sleep? order yourself a bottle (or two) of wine?