Today is our last day of school before break. While I will admit that I like Christmas to be earlier in the two week break, working until the 21st is kinda rough. The kids are totally checked out and crazy, and it’s hard to get anything productive done. Today is a short day, and it’s basically glorified babysitting. I’m even leaving early to participate in my daughter’s holiday party.
Yes, she is back at school. Her weird stomach bug has passed and so far it doesn’t seem like anyone else got it. This is the second time she has gotten a stomach thing that lasted 48 hours and only struck at night. She pukes at night, then can eat all during the day, then feels bad again before bed, then pukes again a second night, then is fine by the afternoon of the second day. It’s weird. I hope she isn’t making herself sick with anxiety or anything. When her brother was born she threw up in the evenings like this for three nights, but no one else ever got sick and eventually she got better. At the time I thought she just got a bug and thanked god the newborn didn’t get it, but looking back I assumed it was psychosomatic – that the intense transition to having a sibling made her sick. I wonder if that is what’s happening now too.
The new year is coming and I’m trying to think about what serves me in my life. I notice I still read some blogs that definitely don’t make me feel good about myself or my life, or that simply annoy me, and I know I would never keep those people in my life, so why do I invite their words into my mind? It’s interesting how it can be hard to let go of things that don’t make us happy. I used to tell myself that I should expose myself to stuff that annoys me or gets me down so I could work through those triggers but I’m realizing that I just don’t mesh with some personalities and that is okay. It’s not making me a better person to read their words, it’s just bumming me out or aggravating me, so I’m going to let them go.
There are other habits I want to let go of that will be harder. I guess we shall see.
I’m definitely feeling better than I did when I wrote that last post. I think making it through the work week, as I pushed to get my kids ready for a test they took yesterday (I did not wait for today! I learned my lesson!) was wearing on me more than I realized.
HURRAH!!!!!!! YOU MADE IT. (it is now almost 4 so you have left school.) So glad you wrote, that your daughter is improved, that more sick people at home did not happen. Totally hoping you have a peaceful, restful, calm, laughter filled holiday and all those other good wishes. (Specifically including getting at least some time for you to feel organized and energized for the new year.) Yes, dropping that which does not make your world a better happier world makes sense.
You are a glorious gift as are those who comment here and I wish you could all see yourselves as I see you.
Also that you continue to write and make my world brighter.