{{Again, apologies if you got yesterdays post up to THREE(?!) times. I do not know what the WordPress app was doing, but I didn’t have my computer to fix it.}}
{This post is a short rumination on the last post, and I wrote it yesterday on the plane. I promise my next post will be about our time in CDMX. We arrived yesterday and are having a great time.}
Sometimes I wonder why I still write this blog. It’s been 15 years of putting my thoughts out into the ether and my reasons have changed drastically in that time. It’s much harder to articulate what this space means to me and why I keep coming back to it.
But finishing up that post was really clarifying. Wanting to articulate what had changed to allow me to keep the house clean, helped me to actually identify it. Realizing that the decluttering and reorganizing created the space I needed to identify persistent problems and gave me the motivation to solve them (and the confidence that I could solve them) in new ways was really eye opening. I don’t think I would have recognized any of that without writing about it. And that is important for me to not only realize, but to articulate. Because this vague sense that “writing can be helpful” is not enough to grasp at when the hosting fees come due. But realizations like that one are valuable to me. They are with the hosting fees and the time and the words and the feelings of vulnerability.
So yeah I just wanted to put that out there. And give it a title so that my future self can come back and find it. When the hosting fees come due. 😉
You help others too …. you are not alone and others are not alone. Company in these tough areas really helps. Less failure and more reality that not all brains work the same. You show HOPE for all of us.
I have enjoyed reading your posts
for many years, through thick and thin (wink)
I agree with purple and rose above ……you help others by sharing your life.
Hope you have a lovely holiday you deserve it.
I don’t think I knew that you are also someone who “stuck with the writing”… 15 years! Not too many bloggers have been around for that long! (I am nearing 20, btw.) CRAZY.
I thought I had commented before!
I’m very glad you’re still writing, or I would never have discovered your blog, as a latecomer. I’ve pondered the same as well over the years and come to the same conclusion. It’s no more expensive a hobby than anything else we do, maybe even cheap compared to the other stuff, and it’s still a valuable way to work through thoughts and feelings in “private” without burdening our friends and family if we’re not ready to be in conversation with them yet.