Bummer (or on not managing disappointment well)

Today I was supposed to go to my first book club with a friend. I have been plowing through the book all week, trying to finish in time, I was nervous, but excited to meet some new people. I’m not very good at “friends” and was looking forward to the opportunity to expand my social circle a bit.

But my friend has a migraine so we won’t be going. I’m so bummed. Sometimes I feel like I can’t catch a break.

I’m definitely not managing my disappointment very gracefully.

Yesterday was a bummer day too. My daughter’s College of the Arts camp for this coming week was cancelled on Friday afternoon, so we had to scramble to figure out what we were doing. This scrambling took place during my 5th period class, which was a disaster. And I was still feeling really disappointed and distracted during my 6th period class, which was my last class with a group I’ve had for two years. In the end I just unceremoniously said goodbye to them as they walked out, and I was really disappointed in myself for that.

Then I went to the dojo and totally bombed the kids class. It was awful. I’m so glad I’m not teaching it again for a while, but I’m disappointed that my last attempt was such a massive failure.

The only thing I got right last night was working out late. I don’t usually work out after 8pm but I was feeling restless and was worried I wouldn’t get it in the next morning before book club so I just did it. And I felt much better after I did.

Now I’m on the bus to the dojo. The silver lining in not going to book club is that I can make it to sparring. Hopefully after an hour of rolling around on the floor I’ll feel better.

{Update: Sparring was absolutely what I needed today. I’m very glad I could go.}

I also steeped five of the teas for tomorrow’s make-your-own-boba bar. It feels good to cross stuff off my giant party prep list.

How is your weekend going? How do you deal with disappointment these days?