I was planning on doing a 5 Fives on Friday post this morning. On the way to work I had it all mapped out. Then I got to my classroom and it felt like a giant wave of tasks just crashed over me and threw me around all day until it was finally 3:10pm and I said “Hasta luego” to my final class.
I’ve kind of felt like that all week.
It’s been a lot. My husband hasn’t been sleeping great and he’s really struggling with low moods right now. All week I got home after incredibly long days and he would be a zombie on the couch until he shuffled off to bed at 10pm. Meanwhile I had to stay up until past midnight grading papers and getting stuff ready for the next day.
I’m also the official family Uber driver again because my daughter is able to go to swimming three times a week only if I take her two of those times. Most of the year she can only go once a week (they day her school gets out early), but during the high school swim season her practice gets pushed back. She really wants to commit to swimming right now, and I can’t deny her that so I’m driving an extra 1.5 hours twice a week now. Sigh.
Oh my god I am struggling to write this so badly right now. My brain is made of oatmeal. And I have so much to do. I’m facing down the last weekend before our trip and I feel like my to-do list just keeps getting longer, instead of smaller. Everywhere I look are spots I forgot about, and that need to be dealt with. I am SO OVER cleaning up my house. I feel like I never want to look at my house ever again.
This might be all I have in me right now. I promise things are not really that bad, I’m just so, so done. My brain is fried and my body is sore and I just need a drink tonight and a morning with some space to get some stuff done.
And luckily both of those things are in my future.
Happy Lunar New Year everyone!
YES! Happy Lunar New Year. Year of the Dragon.
But I am SO DISAPPOINTED. Somehow I was convinced that today at close of school you were taking off for Vacation. And I gather that I had it wrong…. NEXT FRIDAY. Goodness. I am so disappointed on your behalf. At least I was the person who was wrong and not you. On top of the week you had, that would have been AWFUL.
Your home will be fine even if you find it isn’t perfectly spotlessly immaculate. The grands will have a good time together no matter what. Take a deep breath and hold yourself to the standard you would hold some one you love, a human person. Then take another big breath and take some time to be good to you, because you are special. Sending hugs and faith!
Hugs to you, friend. You always hold yourself to such a high standard, you do so much for your family. I am actually trying to be more like you in terms of doing stuff with my kids- you bring them camping and to museums and just everywhere. So thank you for the motivation.
I also hope you’ll feel better soon- like the other commenter said, the grand parents will be just fine. Happy lunar new year!
It seems like you have a lot going on. Cut yourself some slack.