NaBloPoMo Bitches!

Yep! That’s right bitches! I’m doing NaBloPoMo this month!

I used to sign up, kind of as an after thought, because posting every day wasn’t much of a challenge. I already posted every weekday, posting on the weekends wasn’t that hard.

But this time?! It’s going to be a challenge, and a proper challenge at that.

But I need a challenge. Or better said, I need a challenge that excites me. The other challenges I’ll be facing this month are of the groan-eliciting persuasion. They make me anxious as I’m pretty sure I’m doomed to fail.

Writing every day in this space? That is something I think I can do. That is something I think I want to do. That is something I think will help me.

I just hope it doesn’t backfire.

You see, I’ve been a bit proud of myself, for walking away from this space as much as I have. I think I used to post too much, or I used to post things I shouldn’t have posted. I ALWAYS came to write and I ALWAYS published what I wrote. It was kind of a recipe for disaster, and well, there were a fair number of them.

But I grew up. I matured. I stopped airing my dirty laundry for everyone to read. I started finding other ways to handle the hard shit in my life. And I felt good for doing that. I haven’t regretted much of what I’ve written here, and I hope to keep it that way. But I’ve also noticed that in not coming here, I’ve stopped processing a lot of things. I read a book or watch TV, something that will distract me from the discomfort, or numb the pain, and so a lot is being left by the wayside, or stuffed down until the pressure becomes too great, and explodes. While things may be better in this space, they aren’t so much in my real life.

And therein lies the challenge. I want to write every day, but I hope to avoid airing my dirty laundry. While I think the very act of writing something I feel comfortable publishing will be difficult in and of itself, keeping my dirty laundry in the hamper might be even harder. If I’m forcing myself to sit down and write, it’s going to be really hard not to engage in a good ‘ole venting session.

So yeah, this is going to be a challenge, but it’s a challenge I’m going to embrace, because writing has gotten me through a lot of hard shit, and I think it can help me through some hard shit now too.

So get ready… because I’ll be frequenting your inbox quite a bit.