Seven on Sunday, Last day of break edition

It’s Sunday and my break is over. While I’d rather not be going to work tomorrow, I’m okay with the end of the break. I didn’t do as much around the house as I wanted and the clutter and chaos is starting to bother me, but I clearly needed to prioritize rest this week and I’m trying to be okay with my choices. I still have some work to do tonight, but I don’t think I’ll be cursing my choices tomorrow morning.

I have been struggling with reading lately. I’m having a hard time with Alas de Onyx (Onyx Storm in Spanish). I feel like I can’t remember the characters or the back story and I’m constantly confused. I finally read a summary of Iron Flame and while it reminded me of some important plot points, I still don’t feel like I know what’s going on in the third book. My daughter loved Onyx Storm though so I’m pretty sure this is a me problem.

I’m also really struggling with The Heaven and Earth Grocery Store, which is a book club book. I don’t know why but I never want to listen to it. I’m just not invested in any of the characters yet. I never am curious to know what happens next. I know this books was highly acclaimed and widely regarded as amazing so I’m not sure why I’m struggling so much. I just keep listening to old episodes or If Books Could Kill and Maintenance Phase instead of listening to real books.

I also keep buying clothes for myself, which I absolutely don’t need. And then the sizes aren’t right so I buy them in another size so I can return the first one I got, even though what I should be doing is JUST returning the original. I absolutely have too many clothes as it is, and even after filling an IKEA bag with items I rarely wear anymore. I still feel not great about the purchases. Having said that, I highly doubt I’ll be retuning it all once the new sizes come.

I’m not sure how I feel about my new medication. I wasn’t at work this week so it’s hard to know how effective it is. My new psych recommended I take a day off every week, to maintain efficacy, so I’m not taking it today. I guess this coming week I’ll have a better idea.

I also went to my first Adult ADHD Support Group via Zoom on Friday. The topic was “interrupting,” which is one of the things I still struggle with the most, so I was motivated by the topic. It was helpful to know this is an area where other people with ADHD struggle, I did not find much or the information helpful. While it was helpful to explore why I want to interrupt, and to learn the social dynamics of different kinds of interruptions, the suggestions to take three breaths before you say anything or to slow your thoughts down so you’re not bored or formulating what you’re going to say didn’t feel very useful. If I could slow by thoughts down or not be bored by every day interactions I absolutely would! Then I wouldn’t have any problems!

Back to prescriptions, yesterday was the last day of my two weeks of topical rosacea medication and I’m pretty sure I’m just going to flair up again because I had a mini-flair while I was using it. I guess we’ll see how I do, but I don’t feel very hopeful that this will keep my rosacea at bay in the long run, and I have a lot of reservation about long term low dose antibiotics, which is what I think was suggested as the next treatment. We shall see.

Today the 14yo has friends coming over but the 11yo does not so he and I will be hanging out a bit. I wanted to get him the LEGO Fortnite Battle Bus when he earned his red belt, but it has been sold out since a month before Christmas. It’s finally in stock and we can grab it from a store down by my work today, so that will kill time and give him something fun to do. I’m hoping to convince him of gettin rid of his snap ships so he has a place to put it too.

Bonus item, my dad shared this with me and it’s so spot on. As Homer Simpson once said, “I t’s funny because it’s true.”