It looks like I’m in for a long walk through the valley of meh. I suppose it shouldn’t be a surprise – what with this Christmas hangover being topped with the crushing weight of the omicron wave ahead. Of course I’m feeling blah about things.
A part of me is trying to revel in the slowness of this week. I need the respite from real life, and I’m privileged enough to get one. And there are days when I luxuriate in an hour or two spent on the couch. But we have kids at home. And my husband is still sick. And all of the sudden it’s Tuesday. I have a lot to do before Thursday night.
Yesterday and today I packed up Christmas and put it away. When I looked at my twinkling tree all I saw was a chore that had to be accomplished. And honestly, it was easier to start there than on all the other cleaning I have to do.
I really hate cleaning. And I’m so bad at it. It’s honestly embarrassing. At this point I need someone to come over to feel motivated to do it. If we didn’t have friends coming to spend the night on Thursday I would have let this break pass me by like I did Thanksgiving. It’s shameful.
I really should just get a house cleaner. I was going to, before I saw the price tag for after care. Maybe when my son is old enough to not need after care… Just 3.5 more years.
{And no, my daughter cannot provide it because my son gets out at 2:50pm and my daughter doesn’t get out until 4pm and it would take her at least 30 minutes to get to his school. I can generally pick up my son by 4:30, and I do most days to get him to martial arts.}
But tonight I get to have dinner at my parents with some friends. A few blissful hours of adult conversation without kids to interrupt. I’m spending the night there too, so I can sleep without my husband’s coughing waking me up.
It’s been nine days and he’s still as sick as he was in the beginning. We are both so over it. I really, REALLY hope he’s feeling a little better by Thursday, but at this point I don’t have high expectations.
I find it kind of hilarious that he didn’t get Covid and he’s still so, so sick. I bet a bout of Covid, after his booster shot, would have been a lot better than this. His cough is horrible.
I know the gray skies are not helping my mood. Or the cold. We keep our house at 63* and these days that feels cold. We still don’t have a working heater downstairs but I did pull out both space heaters because it was 55* down there this morning and my husband had to attend some meetings on zoom. Only one of the space heaters even works anymore – I’m so glad we had two. It’s supposed to hit the mid-30s this week, with highs in the 40s some days. We went to a museum yesterday and we tried to hit up the playground afterward but we weren’t dressed warmly enough so we had to leave. It was really frustrating because we just haven’t had many patches of dry weather so we’ve been inside a lot.
I never thought of myself as someone who is really affected by the weather but clearly I was able to avoid learning this about myself only because I live in an area with some of the best weather in the world. It’s so weird that I am only just figuring this out! (or that I figure it out and then forget!)! ::face palm:: I guess I have to be more grateful to live where I do.
Sorry for the series of downer posts. It’s just where my head is at these days. Maybe, on Friday, after my house is clean and I’ve spent some quality time with friends I haven’t seen in ages, I’ll feel better. I sure hope so.
How are you spending this weird week between Christmas and New Years?
Congratulations on having Christmas packed and put away. That is a lot of attention and work when you have a sick husband and two children at home. You got out of the house as well!
I believe it was too cold for the playground, because here people are not adjusted to 30’s & 40’s temperatures. I encourage you to turn your daytime heat up a shade, it helps everyone’s mood also probably a good idea for your husband to be warmer so his body isn’t using energy to heat him instead of fighting the illness. Hope he reached Advice Nurse and they offered some help. Also hope no fever & no pneumonia or bronchitis! Bronchitis sounds possible, would antibiotics help?
Glad you will be at adult dinner and spend the night tonight. That will be refreshing and good for you.
Household cleaners are a help but they do cost money. If you can get 10 minutes in one session of focused help from your kids without a lengthy hassle which takes too much energy, that can really improve the house appearance. Yes, I do remember. Even 5 minutes with a timer helps. Sending support wishes!
While YOU feel this was a downer post …. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER! Like I had company ~ that I am not alone in finding things dampered, low energy, grey and sad, wanting ‘huddle in’ during this week.
THANK YOU for writing.
I’m working this week, so it’s like any other week, or has been. But, people are no showing for interviews at an even higher rate than before the holidays so….today I’m going to get my Real I.D. I’m enjoying the lights so have the tree up- besides, the boy scout that pick up trees in our area (We always have a real tree) don’t pick up until next weekend.
I also desperately want someone to clean, but in my case it’s my husband not wanting anyone in the house that’s keeping it from happening. Sigh. I hope to go to my BFF’s on NYE. She’s having 2 of our friend’s over for a game night, and we’re all vaccinated, but time will tell. And, it IS cold! In the Sierra Foothills here and we’ve been in the low 40’s for highs all week. BRRRRRR I say!!!
I have a cleaner every two weeks, just for my downstairs. It makes SUCH a difference, not only in my mood, but because I always pick up a ton before she comes which keeps the clutter from piling sky high like it otherwise would. I would give up a lot of things before I would give that luxury up…