Emotional Heavy Lifting

My husband has been dealing with what we think is clinical depression for about a year now. Some days/weeks/months are better than others. Some are worse. We’re in a down swing right now. He’s struggling. Which means I need to step up, both pragmatically and emotionally. It’s been a lot. It’s throwing various wrenches in my week. I’m tired and wishing I could do more. And annoyed I have to do so much.

In the meantime my car was serviced. I took advantage of the Target near the car service place (and its sale) to get some presents. I cleaned the compost and recycling bins, which were so gross and smelled so bad every time I walked past them on the way to my room.

They’ve literally never been so clean.

The kids and I put ornaments on the tree. Panther tried to knock a bunch of them down. I started the calendar on Shutterfly.

We’re ornament-heavy tree decorators.

And I almost forgot to post today. I thought I’d have more time to participate in NaBloPoMo this week but it feels like I have less.

Trying to roll with the punches right now. Just trying to show up how and when people need me. Trying to get things done and chill out.

In the tree again.

6 Comments

  1. Support. I hope your husband finds his way out soon with appropriate help. A very hard time for all of you and a heavy load for you to carry at this time.
    Love your tree and impressed by the determination and curiosity of the cats about it. I can see why you so carefully position and support it.
    Glad you were able to get some shopping done while the car was made safe for the winter. Severe depression is so hard on everyone around it.

  2. Depression is so hard for the entire family. Please remember that caretakers need time off, too.

    Hugs to the cutest, naughtiest kitty.

  3. I am so sorry your husband struggles with depression. My husband has some mental health issues too and it often feels like I have to step up and be supportive (which I gladly do!) but it’s also a lot to carry when you feel like you always have to put your own needs on the backburner.
    I hope he’ll get through this and I sure hope he has some professional help outside of your support.

  4. Hey, you are doing all the things. You are doing great, and you are being there for your spouse and your family when he can’t be the equal partner. You are doing great. Hang in there — this sounds incredibly challenging.

  5. Mental health challenges are so difficult, and so much more common than most people know. I also hope he is getting help, and that it works. Your tree is beautiful, and your cats are adorable.

  6. Omg is that “Panther” in the tree??? What a great name for a cat. I think my cats wish they had names that made them sound more tough : )
    i’m really sorry about your husband. That’s terrible for him and so, so hard for you. And holidays are hard- I wonder if that’s why he’s in a down swing. I hope he’s able to get the help he needs and take some of the burden off you.

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