Wow, I really have come far! {Or: An ode to glaciers}

I wrote that post last night and then something compelled me to read some of my original posts on this blog.

I don’t think I’ve ever visited my archives in this space. I’m not sure why, but it just hasn’t happened. It’s been almost a two years since I started writing here, and there is a lot of me on these “pages.” It can be a compelling exercise to go back and revisit the person I once was.

I did that last night, and I was struck by how far I’ve come. Truly. I honestly didn’t remember how bad it was, how far into the hole I was before I started pursuing minimalism and getting rid of stuff. But it was bad. Really bad. This post was especially eye opening. I don’t remember it being that untenable in our new house, but clearly it was.

Change can be so gradual that sometimes we don’t appreciate how incredible it really is. I so appreciate having this space so I can go back and remember, so I can see how far I’ve actually come, and be proud of what I’ve accomplished. Because you know what, I’m not that person who wrote that post about her disgusting house. My house IS NOT like that now. If I had known then, that I would be here now, I would have cried great big tears of relief. I would have been so grateful to know there really was a light at the end of that dark, dirty, overwhelming tunnel.

But I didn’t know, and I tried to change anyway. And that is brave. And I’m proud of myself for this undertaking. I’m proud of myself for following through, for keeping on the path even when it was difficult and I felt I was moving backward, for sticking with it despite what felt like glacially slow progress.

I’m starting to realize that glacially slow is okay. Because glaciers may move slowly, but they cut incredible, dramatic valleys in their wake. They fundamentally and forever alter the landscape. They are enormous forces of change.

Minimalism is my glacier: slow, steady, landscape-altering and unstoppable.

8 Comments

  1. Good for you! It can be so hard to take the long view sometimes, when we want instant and measurable results. It’s something I’m working on too.

    Whenever I look at old pictures of my house, I look to see whether it’s cleaner or dirtier now. Usually I can’t tell, which probably means there’s been no change. But it sounds like you’d be able to see a huge difference!

    1. It is hard to take the long view sometimes, but it’s a worthwhile endeavor. I’m trying to remember that. I think this will help me embrace the long view more moving forward.

  2. Slow glaciers!!! Yes. Super happy for you. Minimalism is individual, a process not an end point, and a constant endeavor. SO glad you were able to see and celebrate your progress towards an easier life.

  3. Did you take before and after pictures? Not that you have to share them but pictures are a good reminder at how far you have come as well. We took before and after pictures when we were rehabbing our house and all of the hard work that it took was totally worth it when I look back on those pictures!

    1. I did not. I wish I had! It really does look SO MUCH BETTER. And even more importantly, it takes SO MUCH LESS TIME to keep it that way.

  4. That’s brilliant! Well done. Your writing is your before/after photo. It paints the emotional picture as well.

    Now, if only I could achieve that in my office …

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