Five on a Friday

Five things on a Friday seems to be popular around these part of the blogosphere. I’ve never done one before, but I think I can probably figure it out. 😉

So five things I’m thankful for at the start of this Thanksgiving Break:

Appointment Availability

I can still not believe I can take the car in and get a new prescription this week. The car has needed to be serviced for MONTHS and I really want to take advantage of vision insurance covering one pair of glasses per calendar year. The fact that I can get both done when I have the time and space to do so is amazing.

Older kids

And I don’t have to worry about child care coverage while I do these things because my kids are old enough to stay home by themselves. So while I’m making my way home Tuesday morning after dropping off the car my kids will be watching themselves at home while my husband is at work. It’s a whole new world.

Bringing a side

I can also check off these old, festering boxes on my to-do list because I am not in charge of Thanksgiving dinner. My parents make the main meal and I just bring stuffing, which is my favorite thing. I am not a whiz in the kitchen so I appreciate not having the stress of pulling of such a large culinary event.

Margins

I have plenty to do this week but I’m pretty sure I’ll have the margins available to get most of it done. We aren’t traveling and we don’t have much planned. I’ll spend half a day at work closing out the first trimester and preparing for trimester 2. I’ll score some tests at home. I have plenty of photos curated for the calendars I need to order. My daughter is ready to help me put up the tree and decorate the house. I think it will all be pretty doable, especially if I use my time strategically.

Family and Friends

I’m excited to spend some time with my parents and my in-laws this week. A couple friends are not going away so I’m hoping we can hang out. I think a few of my kids’ friends will be around. I’m taking them and a friend each to Great America’s WinterFest the Saturday after Thanksgiving. It should be the perfect mix of hanging out at home with the family, being with extended family and seeing friends.

Limping to the finish line

Today was a rough day at work. The kind of day where I sat with the heels of my palms in my eyes for long stretches.

So many students making poor choices. So much effort just to get them to do the bare minimum.

And then my daughter and I went to cheer on her friends (and my friends’ daughters) in their championship volleyball game and they lost at the end of the 3rd game. It was heart breaking and I’m exhausted so this will be all I write tonight.

Just one more day of school before the Thanksgiving break. We all need this week off, and badly.

Should I stay or should I go?

Go to martial arts I mean. And I really struggle with it sometimes.

I am VERY good at sticking with my workout routine. I work out at least four times a week and honestly, I don’t think even major illnesses have kept me from hitting that number most of the time. Exercise makes me feel good, both mentally and physically, so while there are nights I don’t want to do it, I only skip a planned workout if I know I can fit it in elsewhere.

Martial arts is different. First of all it requires about 30 minutes of travel time on either side. It’s not that far, but I need to take the bus (parking in that area is a nightmare) and by the time I walk to the stop, ride the bus, and change into my Ki at the dojo, I need a solid 30 minutes. I actually really like the bus ride – I can actually read or play games on my phone! – but that adds an hour to any time I’m actually there training, which can lead to some long, late nights.

Martial arts is also pretty hard, mentally. It doesn’t usually get my heart rate up to a point where I feel great afterward, but it does require a fair amount of mental fortitude to get through a class. If I’m trying to make it two classes? That is really a lot.

So when it comes time to head to the dojo, and I can find a reason not to go, it’s really hard not to take it. Today I was supposed to be there, but my trip to Costco took longer than expected and I got home right when I needed to leave. I don’t regret the run to Costco because it will only get more crazy there in the lead up to Thanksgiving and I’ve learned the hard way that there is no day a week before the big meal where it won’t be a zoo.

I was waffling on what to do, but ultimately I remembered I needed to have a document ready with a ton of links for my student teacher, who starts her two solo weeks right after the break. I promised her I’d have it by Thursday and I have other work to do tonight, so I decided to stay home. The fact that no one else was here, and I could get the work done on the elliptical, definitely sealed the deal.

But I still feel like I copped out of a promise I made to myself. I struggle with showing up at the dojo when I’m not preparing for a test. I’m a blue belt now and there is an expectation that it will take a long while for me to test again (at least a year, probably longer) which makes it easy to say, oh it can wait.

But I also really love practicing martial arts, it’s just a more complicated, longer term love. It doesn’t provide me with the immediate endorphin rush of a workout, so it’s easier to switch a class for a run or strength training or the elliptical. Especially when I can write blog posts (hey there!) and get work done on the elliptical.

Speaking of which, my time on the machine is up, and my husband and daughter are home. I’m glad I didn’t go to the dojo, because that document required more time than I expected and I’m relieved to have it done. Did I mention I scored the last two classes’ tests last night?! Just in time for Thursday, my no-prep marathon of a teaching day. I really hate Thursdays.

How do you decide when to show up for your own interests, and when to let them go? Are some things harder to show up for than others?

Big and small wins

Sorry for my pity party toddler tantrum last night. After I pressed publish I sat down and graded the fronts of 1.5 classes’ assessments AND finished the backside of one class. So I went from being 1/4 done to 2/3 done! Hurrah! I have grand ambitions to finish off another classes’ tonight.

At work today I made a service appointment for the car and an eye appointment – both for next week when I have so much time! I still can’t believe that happened. I was seriously going to ask if they had availability for the car the first week of January.

Finally, I went to PT and I think the exercises and stretches he gave me are going to help. I did one lower back release and held a plank for one minute and the movements that usually send pain down my leg were no problem! I’m trying not to get too excited but if this is all it takes to resolve pain I’ve been feeling for two years I’ll be thrilled.

APEC is in town this week which means Presidents Biden and Xi are in San Francisco as I type this. What a shit show downtown is going to be all week. I’m so glad I do not have to venture there. My husband and daughter do, and I really hope it’s not as bad as everyone fears. Still, not my immediate problem! Woot!

I’m in line to pick up my daughter’s ADHD medicine, which is always a giant PITA but is officially happening so I can’t really complain. (Well, I already did, and loudly, to my husband, so I’ll leave it that). As long as I am actually picking up the stuff when my number gets called I’ll be happy enough.

I still have to move everything out of my bathroom, but I’m not as annoyed by it after all I got done today. I just hope they really do finish by the end of the week. At least the plumbing part… my guess is we’ll have unfinished floors in there for way longer than I’d like.

UPDATE: Getting my daughters Rx filled truly sucked but it’s over and I have it so I’m letting it go. Still need to deal with the bathroom, but dinner is almost done.

Here’s to big and small wins!

I don’t wanna

I’m not in a great head space. This week is going to be a tremendous slog, and I just want it to be over. I fear I will push a bunch of work to the break and then be resentful when I have to work over the break. If I want to get it done this week I have a lot of long nights ahead of me.

Our bathroom is getting torn up this week and I’m so salty about it. It’s not just the $8K (but ho boy does the $8K take my breath away), it’s also the inconvenience. But mostly it’s the fear. My bathroom is one of my favorite rooms in a house that can drive me a little crazy. What is they bust it up beyond repair? What if I hate it when it’s all over.

I feel like we’ll be spending a spectacular amount of money and I’ll probably like the space less when they’re done. Blerg. Why do pipes have to get holes in them. Such bunk.

I feel like I’m not even showing up here in the ways I wanted. I told myself I could do this, but maybe I can’t. At least not in the ways I wanted. I know it’s okay, but I’m still disappointed.

Mostly I’m just not sure why I’m getting my ass handed to me so hard this school year and I’m nervous about it. Is it really my student teacher? Or did I just take take on more than I could manage when I tried to accommodate so many students wanting Spanish? Or am I just getting old and run down and unable to keep so many balls in the air?

Sorry, didn’t meant to show here like this today but it’s where I’m at.

Here are some photos of the cats, who survived their vet visit. We may be investing in two micro chip feeders that will (in theory) keep Serval out of Panther’s food dish. He is a solid sir who evidently can’t get any more solid lest the weight gain cause him to develop diabetes. 😬

Panther explored all around. She also hissed when she got her shots.
Serval stayed in his carrier, but was way more subdued when he had to get his shots.

We’re all glad it’s over!

Weekend Wrap-up

The rest of the weekend was quite lovely. I’m still more behind at work that I’d like, but I’m trying to be okay with it. My grades aren’t due until after the Thanksgiving break, so I have some time.

Saturday I went to the dojo for General and Sparring. There we’re only four is there for the General class and I got some one-on-one instruction about new blue belt techniques that I still don’t feel super comfortable doing. Sparring was fun. I ran that class for the first time and my efforts were recognized.

When I got home everyone was out so I cleaned up and did some laundry. In the afternoon my daughter and I went to watch her two friends play an important volleyball game. Their team won and will go on yo the Championships on Thursday!

We went to our friends house afterward to hang out. The moms watched the Warriors game (not a great one) and the girls hung out doing whatever 8th grade girls do nowadays. We headed home pretty early because my husband had been stuck with our son all day and he wasn’t feeling great.

Sunday I made pancakes. Pumpkin pancakes. So many pumpkin pancakes. My son doesn’t like many foods that pack easily as lunches, so every few weeks I make two boxes worth of pancakes and freeze most of them. Sunday was that day. I do love TJ’s pumpkin pancake mix. I ate a lot of pancakes, as did everyone else.

My son and I walked the 13yo to a birthday party. When we got home we left to run and bike ride on the Great Highway. It was a beautiful day and I’m so glad we made it out there.

They close the whole highway on the weekends.
It is right on Ocean Beach and the Pacific.
My son, kicking my butt on his bike.
A band was playing in the middle of the lanes.
A kid was dressed up in a real live MarioKart.

It was not my best run, but I loved being out with my son and the weather was beautiful. He hasn’t been on his bike and had a great time.

In the evening the kids and I saw The Marvels. I couldn’t find my Goose shirt and I was pretty pissed about that, but I loved the movie. I love Captain Marvel and the Ms. Marvel series too, so it was awesome to see them on the big screen together. And of course Goose stole the show.

I have one (or more!) things every day after school this week, starting with a vet visit for both cats tomorrow. Please think of me at 4pm PST time tomorrow. There is no way or can go well. 🤣

One year with kittens

It was a year ago this weekend that we brought these two crazy cats into our lives. It has been a roller coaster ride ever since.

We adopted them from a feral cat rescue as a bonded pair. They are not siblings but they have been raised together since they were a week old. We consider them siblings, and I imagine they do as well.

They play together a lot. Serval (on the left) is constantly messing with his sister. But Panther brings it plenty herself. (Serval and Panther are their blog names – even my cats remain anonymous here!)

Panther always looks startled.
In his cat cave.
In my robe sleeve! (For real.)
Such a snuggle bug.
I love when they snuggle each other.

Sorry I can’t write much more about them tonight, but my guess is you don’t mind pictures instead of words on this topic.

(If you would like to see more cat photos you can do so here and here and here and here.)

A do nothing day

Today I did pretty much nothing. And it was nice. And dare I say, needed. But now I have so much to do. Sometimes I wonder if do-nothing days are worth it. Yes, you get to rest and recharge, but then you’re faced with even more the next day.

At least it is a three day weekend, so I still have 48 hours to get some stuff done. And next next week is Thanksgiving break, so whatever isn’t done at the end of the weekend can probably wait until the break.

I’m trying not to let the looming to-do list stress me out too much. Everything will be okay, eventually.

Faux Friday!!!!

The long weekend has officially begun and I am here for it!!!

I was able to leave work easily – it felt different knowing my student teacher was in charge of the two periods, NOT that I was in charge of making the two periods work for someone else.

The high school tour was fine. I don’t really get them, but I’m glad we went. And my daughter had friends there to bounce thoughts and ideas ofd of so that was good.

My parents came up and got the kids. And now date night begins. We’re definitely getting a drink and having dinner, but we’ll probably come home after that to chill out with some home made cocktails (my husband’s speciality) and furikake popcorn (my speciality).

Last night I meant to do work but instead I snuggled with these cats and watched some TV. #noregrets

I’ll get the work done this weekend. We have three days. I am so here for this long weekend.

I hope every who gets it has exactly the weekend they need. Cheers!

Almost forgot this one.

Getting out from under it

I committed to NaBloPoMo on Friday, after assisting until 6:30pm at the dojo. On Saturday I left at 9am to wine country, and didn’t get home until Sunday at 5pm. Monday night I taught the Basics class at the dojo and last night I went to sparring. Both ended at 8pm. I have been sleeping badly, despite the fact that falling back usually helps me sleep better. I’m pretty sure what I thought was allergies is actually whatever dry cough is making the rounds (and ho boy is it ever – this bad boy is catching!) Its been a whirlwind first week of November!

I’ve had 95 assessments burning a hole in my expandable folder, and all my Day of the Dead stuff reminding me that I have to put it away. I have been feeling VERY underwater this week. And I’ve also been trying to accept that feeling and let it go. I knew that today would provide a little space, and that I just needed to wait for that space.

Today I came to school not feeling great, but I was determined to get out from under the piles that have been accumulating all around my classroom. And I kind of did! All the Day of the Dead stuff is packed away, and the 12 kids who were absent last Friday took their assessment today.

I ran on the way home. A short run, but it felt pretty good, considering how awful I felt this morning. I ran two unpleasant errands on the way home, and it feels good to get those out is the way.

Tomorrow I’m leaving work early, but I had no trouble getting coverage for my two block periods because my student teacher is teaching. Thursday is my long, hard day because I have four block periods and no prep. I’m pretty thrilled to be missing half of it. And it’s a long weekend!

I’m leaving early for my daughter’s last high school tour. There are certainly worse reasons for leaving early (like taking both cats to the vet, which I’m doing on Monday). The kids are going to my parents’ house tomorrow afternoon for a spend the night, so my husband and I can spend some quality together. It’s been a long time since our last date night. I’m looking forward to it, and to the long weekend.

View on my run.