5 Fives on Friday: Getting Covid in 2024 Edition

Guess who just got booted from the “only had Covid once” club?! Yep! It’s me!

Boooooo!

Here are some thoughts on having Covid a second time, two years after my first time and 4.5 years after the initial lock down.

5 days in the symptom timeline

  • Monday my throat was twingy but I really thought it could be allergies or something else. By the evening I still wasn’t sure, but still went to the Pulp concert and drank and danced and had a great time, because I felt pretty much fine. Monday night I could not sleep at all and by Tuesday morning I felt pretty awful.
  • Tuesday I tested positive for Covid immediately. Like the minute the liquid hit the test line it was bright pink. I put on a mask, opened the windows and let my husband know. I also put in for a sub. Then I made the kids’ lunches and headed to work, so I could get ready for said sub. I spent an hour in my car in the parking lot finalizing sub plans, then made some copies, dropped them off and headed home. I felt pretty bad on Tuesday – no fever but lots of body aches and shivering then sweating. It wasn’t great. I was surprised that night to realize I probably wouldn’t feel well enough to go to school again on Wednesday, so I put in for another sub and wrote sub plans and posted work on google classroom. Luckily, Wednesday is my light day so it wasn’t that hard to pull stuff together.
  • Wednesday I felt pretty bad in the morning – more body aches and sweating then shivering. I took three short naps, which is unheard of for me, even when sick. I was freaking out that I’d have to take yet another day off (Thursdays are impossible days for me to be out), but by 3pm I started feeling better. I had been isolating downstairs, but my husband had to stay at work and then go to Daughter’s Back-to-School-Night, so Son was going to be upstairs alone for a LONG period of time, so I came up with a mask on and we watched a movie together from far ends of the living room (with the windows open and the air purifier near me cranking).
  • Thursday I went back to work with a mask on. I felt pretty decent all day, despite no breaks (not even for lunch because I had to recruit kids for yearbook during the Club Fair). By the time I got home I was pretty exhausted.
  • Friday has been much of the same. I honestly feel pretty much fine at this point. I have a little bit of a stuffy nose, and light cough, but most of the colds I’ve had in the past two years were worse than this on day four.

5 Reasons I really don’t like wearing a mask

I know some people still wear masks out in the world, but I was so happy when that stopped being required. I really dislike wearing a mask, and these are five reasons why.

  • They hurt my ears. Even though I wear a strap that holds the back of the ear straps off my ears, they still hurt my ears and eventually give me a headache. I have never found a mask that is effective and doesn’t make my head hurt.
  • I can’t wear my glasses. I know people have figured out how to do this, but I have not. I can’t wear contact lenses, so when I’m wearing a mask I really struggle to see. This is especially difficult at work.
  • It makes my eyes hurt. Even when I manage to get a good fit on my mask, the air that escapes by my eyes makes my eyes dry and painful. At the end of the day of wearing a mask my eyes actually ache. Like I want to massage them. It’s awful.
  • My face breaks out. It broke out before I had rosacea. Now that I have rosacea, it’s even worse.
  • It’s so hard to be heard in a mask. Teaching in a mask sucks. It’s the worst. The kids can’t hear me and if they can hear me they can’t really understand me. Teaching a foreign language in a mask is an exercise in futility. Truly, there is nothing I dislike more than trying to teach in a mask.

5 ways having Covid was different this time (two years later)

  • The first time I had Covid I had to stay home for 10 days or until I tested negative. I tested positive first (in my family), on a Saturday morning. I believe I tested negative on day nine so I was able to go back to work a day “early.” I missed six work days, and my friend was able to sub for me the entire time (this was HUGE and kept me from losing my mind). The days I missed did not come out of my regular sick leave, they were paid for by the district (through the state I believe).
  • This time I missed two days of school, but only because my symptoms required I stay home. Those days will come out of my regular sick leave. I was allowed to come back after that, and I believe it was only “recommended” that I wear a mask. Of course I’m doing that, because it’s what I would want my students to do if they were at school with Covid. If I’m symptom free on Monday, I will probably not be wearing a mask, even if I’m still testing faintly positive. I will keep the air purifier running and the doors and windows open though.
  • Last time we totally sequestered ourselves and didn’t go anywhere while we were sick. This time I have taken my son to the dojo and school (with a mask on). Today I’ll probably go shopping while he’s at the dojo, because I was supposed to go earlier this week and we really need food.
  • Last time we felt weird telling people we had just had Covid. This time I’m telling all my classes that I’m wearing a mask because I have it. Kids have come up to ask me about it and I’ve told them and it’s fine. The stigma seems to be gone, at least in this community.
  • The last two times one of us have had Covid (my husband in June 2023 and me now), we were about to travel (June 2023) or someone is about to travel (my husband next week), so we have isolated the person who has it. I wonder if the next time someone in our family has it, if we’ll bother doing that at all. It’s so hard on the parent who isn’t isolating, I’m just not sure it’s worth it anymore.

5 Covid data points for our family

  • We all have had all the vaccinations and boosters available to us, except for the most recent booster, which we were planning to get tomorrow. Husband and kids are still planning on getting it tomorrow, as no one seems to have gotten it from me yet.
  • We all had Covid (at basically the same time) in early May of 2022. The immunity that bout provided allowed us to travel to St. Louis, London and Hawaii that summer without getting sick again, despite many close contact situations.
  • Daughter had Covid in February of 2023. She had a gnarly cough and we didn’t test her, but instead all went to a small cabin in the snow for the weekend. I ended up sleeping between my kids in a queen bed for two nights, while my daughter basically coughed straight into my open mouth and I didn’t get it. We were all in the car together for long stretches, recycling the air (because it was cold) and no one else got it. We tested her when we got home, before she was supposed to go back to school, and realized she had Covid. I’m still shocked none of us got it from her. Transmission really makes no sense to me.
  • Husband got Covid in June of 2023, right before our trip to St. Louis. Again, no one in our family got it from him.
  • Son has only tested positive that first time in May of 2022.

5 reactions I’ve had this time around

  • Shocked. I have to admit, when the test turned positive so fast I was shocked. I’ve had so many colds in the past two years and I’ve tested every time and they were all negative. To finally test positive again really threw me for a loop.
  • Guilty. I felt stupid for not testing the night before and felt bad when I texted all my friends to tell them I tested positive that morning. None of them were upset, but still, I felt like a jerk, even though I really didn’t realize I was sick Monday evening.
  • Grateful. At the same time that I felt bad for being near my friends, I was so grateful that I got to see them and hang out. I haven’t seen these high school friends in YEARS and we had such a nice time catching up. The concert was amazing and I’m so glad I got to see Pulp live one last time.
  • Nervous. I’ve been nervous all week that my husband (who has a trip next week) or my son (who has a camping trip next weekend) will start feeling sick. I would feel AWFUL if either of them had to miss out on their special plans because I gave them Covid.
  • Frustrated. I have been meaning to get the booster for a couple of weeks, but kept pushing it back. If I had gotten it, maybe I wouldn’t have felt as sick, or even tested positive. I know I’m so lucky that our symptoms have always been mild and my family has not suffered any long lasting negative health outcomes from our exposures to Covid. Still, it sucks to be dealing with a sickness that still blows up your life so much more intensely than other random viruses. I just wish I could have avoided it all a little longer.

Six on Saturday

Home: House is a mess again. I feel like, superficially, I’ve undone all the work I put in for our trip last February. I know that’s not true because the drawers and boxes and still organized and I know where stuff is. But it’s definitely time to purge a bunch of stuff again, especially in the kids’ rooms. I know things need to feel out-of-control for me to get into a “just get rid of it” mindset and for me to take the time to actually go through stuff to purge it. My guess is I’ll get there sometime next month. If I do it before Son’s 11th birthday I will be super stoked.

Family: Daughter now has lots of homework and is figuring out how to manage that, while still making it to swimming three times a week. It’s stressful and we’re all feeling it. Son had friends over a couple times this past week. Hopefully that will be possible at least once a week moving forward. Husband is falling back into pit of despair. He’s exhausted and despondent much the work week. I’m trying not to spiral about it. I’m dropping many hints about him at least trying an antidepressant. He’s not totally against it but also doesn’t seem interested.

Work: Classes continue to go well, but there are already a lot of behavior issues, especially in my 8th grade classes where the kids have had me for 1.5 years already. I had to send three kids out of the room on Thursday and then send emails home. It made the rest of the day feel very heavy and I was struggling not to project “this wil suck” energy toward the rest of the school year. Having said all that, I’m satisfied with how I handled it. I stayed calm and didn’t raise my voice. I hope that I’m being clear and consistent enough with my expectations now that the rest of the year will get better. All the appendages crossed. Oh, and tech fixed my chromebook so for right this minute I have exactly as many as needed. PLLLLEEEAAASSSSEEE let that remain the case this year!!!

Exercise: M: 30min 50/50 Bike Bootcamp w/ Tunde, CG Deadbug core. 10min arms + shoulders (w/o lateral lifts). Tu: Sparring concepts + sparring. W: rest. Th: 30min glutes + abs, 10min stability ball abs, 10min arms + shoulders (w/o lateral lifts). F: rest. Sa: Teach teens + 45 mins sparring. Su: 45 min full body bike boot camp. (At least that is the plan for Sunday, we’ll see).

I will say that I was working out a pretty solid 5 times a week for a while and I’m trying to step away from that. I do think my life feels more manageable when I work out four times a week. I’m trying to really make those four times feel worthwhile, which means I’ll add some strength onto a running day, or add abs to most other workouts.

Dojo: I’m stepping up more at the dojo. I’m going to more classes and teaching more classes. It’s generally understood that I am one of the few higher belts that is “locked in” (as the youths say). Wednesday I taught Teens, yesterday I assisted kids and today I’m teaching Teens again. It feels good to be such a big part of the changes happening there. I just hope it continues to be sustainable.

Fun: Book club is later today. I didn’t read the book (Wandering Stars), but it sounds like most people didn’t finish it so oh well. I refuse to stress about book club, and it will be nice to see everyone (I missed last month and before that we met in late May). Tomorrow is the 4th/5th grade picnic for Son’s school. I do not love events like that, but it will give us an easy opportunity for him to see his friends without me hosting, and to get outside. Monday my husband and I are seeing Pulp (Brit pop band of my late 90s/early 2000s young adulthood and meeting two of my high school friends for dinner beforehand. I do feel a fair amount of trepidation about being out late on a Monday, but I’m trying to accept it and let excitement and anticipation win over.

Finishing this on the bus again and I’m just going to hit publish, because if I don’t I’ll have to add one more thing and make it a “Seven on Sunday” post. 😏

Recent Silver Linings

Gah! I did not mean to be away so long. I even took pictures for a “photo every hour” post on Saturday but then I had no time to put it together. I drafted a “seven on Sunday” post in my head but that also failed to materialize. I’ve been so slammed that the choices have been “sleep or blog” and of course I always pick sleep. I guess my first silver lining will be that I have been able to sleep. I never take that for granted.

Right now I’m on the bus, hoping I can get a post written on my phone before my stop in 15-20 mins. It’s a post about silver linings, which I’ve been trying to identify lately when things don’t go as planned. {UPDATE: Trying to finish this on the bus again Wednesday (I started it Tuesday). Wish me luck!}

On Friday I meticulously packed up my expandable folder with my two 1B class’s assessments and then left said expandable folder on the counter by my desk. I noticed when I got home, and realized I had to drive back down that evening to get them, because the alarm system isn’t working right on the weekends. So I dropped Son at the dojo and booked it back to school (my husband offered to pick him up for me.) Driving all the way back to work at 5pm truly sucked, but there were two silver linings. 1: I was inspired to see if Listen for the Lie was available for the drive and it was and I started listening to it and loved it. 2: I was guaranteed to grade the tests after I spent all the time going back to get them.

I ended up finishing the audiobook by Sunday afternoon AND I graded the Listening Reading, and Writing portions of both class’s assessments. Woot!

Saturday I took a rest from the dojo to let my shoulder heal, but there weren’t many classes because of a big party later that evening. I was able to take my son to swimming and give my husband some much needed rest (he wasn’t feeling great).

Saturday my stationary bike was knocking and squeaking and it was driving me crazy, but I Tunde had put up a Bike Bootcamp 50/50 class that started on the bike, then spent the whole second half of the class on the floor (usually you go back to the bike), which was exactly what I needed to the workout I had planned for myself. It was literally the first bootcamp programed that way, and it allowed me to avoid my noisy bike and get in the workout I wanted. (I really liked it too).

Sunday I missed two buses and was running for a third to meet my friends at a movie theater when they passed me in their car. They were also running late (that’s why I was on the bus and not with them originally), and I’m so glad they saw me and called my name so I could ride with them.

Tuesday I had my sports medicine appointment for my shoulder. It has been feeling much better, and I probably would have cancelled it except I wanted to meet the new doctor and also talk about my back (to let her know I would make another appointment for that – I was not trying to double dip). But when she walked in, I immediately saw she was very pregnant and knew she would not be available for another appointment in the future. I was super bummed out, but it spurred me to finally make an appointment with a new chiropractor (who also does Active Release Technique – ART) that comes highly recommended by a friend. The reality is I needed to just make that appointment anyway, and if I hadn’t felt like the Kaiser appt was a dead end I probably wouldn’t have done it (she is super expensive, but at this point I just need to commit).

Finally, and this one might seem silly but I swear it’s not. The other night my husband went to bed super early which meant I didn’t get to use the whole bed for my accupressure mat. There isn’t enough space on my side to lie down with my legs straight, so I had to prop my feet up and together on the pillows, which opened my hips more and provided them with a deeper release. I never would have tried that if I didn’t have to make do on my side of the bed; and now I’m releasing my hips that way most evenings.

Bonus dumb luck: I wasn’t sure I should stay for sparring last night but I did and my shoulder felt fine AND on the way out my friend casually mentioned I was teaching the Teens class the next day, which I did NOT have on my calendar. If I hadn’t stayed she wouldn’t have mentioned it and I would have missed it and been MORTIFIED. I’m so glad I stayed and she said something. (I have since checked the schedule and added all the classes I am teaching to my calendar.)

And I made it to the end of this post, as I walk up the block to my house! Hooray!

Weekend Wins + Start of September

Oh how I needed a three day weekend! I am so, so grateful we had today off.

It honestly felt even longer than a “long weekend” because we got out at 1pm on Friday, and I ran and hit up Costco before I got home, and then got to stay home because my son didn’t go to the dojo that day. By Sunday afternoon it already felt like a luxurious amount of time away. Today was the cherry on top.

Saturday morning I was at the dojo early to lead warm ups for the adult general class. I was supposed to teach the teens class but there was a kids test going on, which means we didn’t have enough mats for the two other classes, so the teens were invited to the adult class. I was not sad to miss teaching and gratefully took over the 30 minute warm up instead. I stayed for sparring, which was super fun (all blue belts and above!), but definitely exaggerated my shoulder injury. It both looked, and felt, worse after sparring, so I skipped the other two classes and went home. I also decided I won’t go back to sparring until I’ve been seen (next Tuesday) at the sports medicine department. (Update: my shoulder feels a lot better today. I’m still going to skip sparring until I see someone, but I’m less worried than I was yesterday.)

The other reason I skipped the two later classes was because my husband needed a couple hours of coverage before he took our son (and his friend) to the Giant’s game. Son and I walked to Grocery Outlet to buy some cheap snacks for the baseball game. It was a great way to kill 1.5 hours – the weather was beautiful and we talked a lot!

They left around 4pm and I started watching The Fall Guy (Ryan Gosling and Emily Blunt) while I worked on that planning document for work. I got through a lot of the movie (and finished half of the document) before I had to pick up my daughter and her two friends and bring them to our house. My intention was for them to have free reign of the upstairs since Son and Husband were gone, but they ended up staying in Daughter’s room painting the whole time. This meant I got to finish the movie (and almost 3/4s of the planning document!) and start watching something else. I meant to finish that planning document today, but it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe this evening… (I’m thrilled with the progress I made so far, so I’m not complaining).

Panther also likes looking at Ryan Gosling a lot.

By the time Son and Husband got home – and I had taken Daughter’s friend’s home – we were all pretty wiped. Husband and I hung out a bit, but didn’t try to watch something. It was nice to have that time with him.

Sunday I took both kids to meet my parents at Great America for the last weekend of the water park. The weather wasn’t super warm (76* and very breezy), so we didn’t do a ton, but we had a good time and, most importantly, we killed eight hours of the day. That was the main purpose of the trip, and it absolutely delivered on that.

By the time we got home there were only a couple hours until kid bedtime. I did a little workout (because I had to shower anyway) and then put Son to bed. Daughter came out as Husband was putting on some weird movie that I was less into than Daughter, so we decided to watch it today with the whole family. I’m really curious to see what we all think. It looked SUPER strange when we started it.

Instead of that movie, Husband and I watched something else, which was fine. We’ve been struggling to choose movies because all the ones we want to watch are 2.5+ hours long and we never have that kind of time after both kids are in bed. I wish we had a show to watch right now…

Today (Monday), I decided it was time to tackle the clutter that has been accumulating all over the house. I spent several hours picking up, and while I was not very efficient in my efforts, the house does look better. Our bedroom unit especially is improved, which I appreciate because it was starting to stress me out. I had shit out from the very first camping trip in mid-June sitting around downstairs, and pretty much every surface was covered. I hate when our room looks that way, so I’m glad I took the time to declutter that space. Both kids’ rooms look better too, even if they could use more work.

Husband and I had a long talk about the kids’ college contributions and upped both so that we’ll hopefully have two full years of UC tuition + room/board saved for each kid before they start. (State schools are cheaper than UCs, but room/board in California dwarfs both in terms of cost).

We also looked at September, which is a very busy month for us, and added a bunch of events to the kitchen white board calendar. There are some fun things – we’re seeing Pulp in a couple weeks! – and some less fun things (I’ll be the only parent attending Son’s school camping trip the last weekend of the month, because Husband will be out of town).

September’s photos are of our trip to Universal Studios last October and I’ve been thinking about how I vowed to travel way less this year. I definitely don’t want to go anywhere in the fall, as our summer travel just happened, but I do wonder if by November I’ll want something to look forward to. Maybe a long weekend to the snow would fit the bill. I absolutely believe I need to do less in terms of travel this year, but I also know I need something to look forward to. Maybe just I can go somewhere, since my husband is traveling some again this year (not as much as last year, thank goodness). It’s something I’ll be thinking about for winter or spring…

And my time on the elliptical is over, so I need to sign off. I hope you all had some weekend wins and that September looks like a reasonable month.

Five on Friday: Nothing after the colon edition ;)

Has it really been a week? I guess it has. And I am struggling to get words down on this screen right now. That is probably why I haven’t come here in so long. It was a busy week. My first full week with students. The kids’ first week back at after school activities. Oh, and I injured myself. Again. Blerg, it’s been a lot. I’m not even sure how I’m going to make this post a “five on Friday.” Let’s see what I got.

Work. The first full week went pretty well. One of my classes is really struggling to meet behavior expectations, and I’m going to have to be very clear and consistent with them this year, but otherwise I’m enjoying my classes a lot. There is a new purchasing process that requires THREE approvals at the district level, and evidently a lot of requests are not being approved. We’re being told to use our PTA stipends to buy general supplies that we should not be spending that money on. It’s creating a real atmosphere of scarcity, which isn’t great. Also, the tech department informed me that, because I teach an elective, they are not responsible for replacing any computers in my Chromecart. They can attempt to fix them, but they can’t give me a computer when one is beyond fixing. Evidently, my site is responsible for that, but our admin has told us that we absolutely do not have any extra Chromebooks or the money to buy Chromebooks. My computers are in horrible shape, so this is a bummer to hear. Wednesday night was Back to School Night, which means I was at work for 13 hours, only to return the next day to my hellish four-block-periods-with-no-prep schedule on Thursday. Friday was a minimum day thank god, because I was fried.

Home. The kids had another good week. Daughter went to swimming three times. It was hard to get there from school on public transport, and she was late twice, but hopefully next week will be better because the light rail tunnel closure will be resolved. In the fall one of the light rail trains will be running again after year(s)-long improvements so that should help too. Son continues to walk home from school without issue, but to argue with me about reading and playing outside once he’s home. He came home from school sick today, but now seems fine. I’m wondering if he just said he was sick to get out of martial arts this afternoon. We made sure he was super bored today, so hopefully it won’t happen again. Husband continues to feel overwhelmed and to seem down most of the time, but this week did seem a little better. Maybe that upward trend in mood will continue!

Reading. I don’t usually write much about what I’m reading, but I can’t not mention The God in the Woods, which I believe I put on hold because Lisa mentioned it (she did list is as a favorite in her “What we read in August” post today, so maybe I’m remembering correctly! A first!) I was totally obsessed with the audiobook. I wanted to listen to it all the time. It was just so, so good. Such a great mystery, and so full of interesting, well-developed, characters. I’m seriously really sad that it’s over. I could not get more than 30 minutes into Sandwich and will probably return it without finishing it. I just can’t stand the book’s narrator, especially they way she talks about her grown children. Oh well. I just started listening to Un Mundo Sin Fin (Ken Follet’s World Without End translated into Spanish), because Jenny keeps talking about Fall of Giants (which I have on Audible and never finished) and has now started Winter of the World. I LOOOOVED The Pillars of the Earth when I read it (maybe 20 years ago the first time) so I decided to read the second book in the Kingsbridge series, which I’ve heard can be read before or after Pillars of the Earth, which is good because I don’t remember much about it at all. I also grabbed Marina, by Carlos Ruiz Zafón from the library today, because it’s his only book that I’ve never read and I adored La Sombra del Viento (The Shadow of the Wind) and the other books in the Cementary of Forgotten Books series. Our book club books is Tommy Orange’s newest book, Wandering Stars, which I started reading a little while ago, but couldn’t get into. I listened to There, There and really liked it, so I’m hoping the audiobook will work better for me than the actual book. (Oh, and this is where I admit that I started I Capture the Castle, but was a week late and could never catch up to the CBBC posts, and then I got busy and I kind of think I won’t finish it, even though I was like it well enough. I guess I’ll just read about the second half on Engie’s blog.)

Injury. Ugh, things were going pretty well, and then I injured myself again. This time it’s my right shoulder. I think I have an ACJ sprain or separation. My shoulder was tender Tuesday evening (after sparring), but I didn’t think much of it. Wednesday morning I noticed how tender it was when put on my bra, but I couldn’t quite figure out what exactly on my shoulder hurt. Wednesday night I noticed my collar bone was kind of sticking out and started googling and quickly self-diagnosed myself with an AC joint injury. Thursday I called the sports medicine desk at Kaiser and made an appointment for next Tuesday (9/10), then I promptly ordered myself some KT tape, because I hope taping it will keep me in the game while I wait to figure out exactly what is wrong. The good news is, I’m not in acute pain. It’s definitely tender and sore, but so far no normal arm motion sets it off. I’m terrified of frozen shoulder though (which is evidently a possibly if I don’t let it heal properly), so I’m fairly freaked out by this.

Exercise. Monday – 30 minute bike boot camp interval + arms with Tunde. Tuesday – Sparring concepts + Sparring. Wednesday – rest (it was 80* down by work, so I didn’t try to run, shower at my parents’ house, then come back. Plus I had already trashed my classroom even though it was only the fifth day with kids). Thurdsay – 30 minute lower body strength with Jess Sims. Friday – 30 minute HIIT run with Jess Sims. Saturday – I’m supposed to stay at the dojo after I teach the teens class, but I may bail because of my shoulder. If I don’t stay I’ll do a 45 minute bike boot camp that doesn’t include arms. Sunday – off (I’ll be with my kids at the water park’s last open day of the season!).

And that’s all I got for now. This post took me longer than I expected, and I was hoping to get some work done tonight. I’m trying to take last year’s school planner and get each trimester’s weekly plans typed into a document for my 1A and 1B classes, so I can use that document to plan this year, instead of carting around TWO school planners. I’m only half way through the first trimester for one class and I’m exhausted just reviewing all we’ll do before Thanksgiving. God we cover a lot. No wonder I always feel underwater…

Five on Friday: Start of school year

Short, but sweet, updates on life.

Work: First few days were fine. I was prepared for Wednesday, but NOT Thursday or Friday. Both days were unpleasant enough that I am determined not to make the same mistakes next week. My classes are a smidge smaller (29-32 instead of 32-35) and I’m glad for it. I have my 1B classes back to back (with my prep period in the middle) which I think will help me achieve my goal of making my 1B curriculum really solid this year. I’ll probably won’t have two 1B classes again for a while (maybe ever) so I want to take advantage of this year.

Kids: My kids had good first weeks at school. Son is doing well walking home. Daughter is feeling comfortable at her big high school and making new friends. She finally got put into Spanish 2 and is staying in Orchestra (violin). Next week their activities start up again (martial arts for son and swimming for daughter). Next week is my first full week with students. Next week will be the real test.

Home: House is a mess, but I’m trying not to let it bother me. Husband has been really underwater at work, which means I’m doing more of his chores, which means fewer of my chores are getting done. At least the refrigerators are moved! And the gross one is not in the way, so we have time to figure out what to do with it.

Exercise: Monday: Taught Basics at the dojo. Tuesday: 45 mins on the elliptical + CG’s Dead Bug workout + 10 minutes arms and shoulders on Peloton. Wednesday: 5 mile run (my first since Hawaii?! It felt weirdly rough). Thursday: 45 minutes full body strength on Peloton. Tomorrow will be Sparring + High + Forms at the dojo. Sunday: 30 or 45 minute bike boot camp.

Fun: I took my son to the new indoor mini-golf spot last Sunday. I didn’t love the new course, but I had fun with my son. I had dinner with my daughter Wednesday and she talked and talked and talked. I’m so glad she still wants to talk to me. I finally finished my slog of a Spanish book right when a bunch of library hold audiobooks came available. I’ll probably watch a movie with my husband tonight. I’m seeing my girl friends tomorrow evening. Sunday I’m taking the kids to swim at my mom’s friend’s house. Next weekend we plan to hit up Great America for the last weekend of the water park.

Panther, very curious about how her brother is on the TV.

Ups and downs of late

Lots of ups and downs lately. Here are a few.

Moving our old fridge downstairs to the unit’s kitchen was a massive pain in the ass. It was a disaster. I couldn’t get the doors off because the bolts at the bottom were stripped, so we had to try to move it through several narrow door ways when it didn’t really fit. We ended up being able to open the doors and slide it in at angles, but each attempt required realizing we had it wrong half way through and pushing it back out to start again. We scratched deep gouges into the floor in multiple places that I’m pretty sure I can’t just buff out (not that I have any idea how to buff out deep gouges). We had to move SO MUCH furniture and other shit, and we even had to take the final door off its hinges. It was just a truly miserable 2+ hours, made even worse by my husbands seething resentment that we were doing any of it at all.

But taking the oldest fridge out confirmed we’d made the right move switching them, because it is covered in rust and mold. I had never noticed how truly disgusting it was, probably because I’ve never attempted to clean it.

So am I glad we took the fridge and did all this? I think so. It was so much work and badly timed right as the school year started, but I’m sure in a month or so I’ll be glad we did it. Right now I just don’t want think about how awful it was for a while (except I do think about it every time I see the deep gouges in the hardwood).

Despite working on my knee flexion daily for the last week I have not been able to replicate sitting on me knees like I did last Wednesday. It’s a bummer and I’m trying not to get too down in the dumps about it. I’ve gone from feeling certain I’d be able to sit on my knees again like I used to, to assuming there will only be some days I can do that. I supposed some days is better than no days.

My lower back pain has gotten pretty bad. I was googling “will I have lower back pain forever” earlier this week and a great many articles suggested that the answer was yes, I would. It used to be I only felt it when I was driving, but now I’m feeling it all the time, and stretching does nothing except alleviate the discomfort in the moment. It doesn’t really provide any real relief. I bought a program to build inner core strength and restore pelvic floor function, so I’m going to finish that before I see a new doctor about it (you may remember, my previous doctor left in May), because I doubt they will offer me more than the anti-inflammatory Rx that I already have numerous refills of.

I can’t really believe that I’m only 44 and am suffering from lower back pain. It’s amazing how much my health has disintegrated since I turned 40. My sleep turned to shit, my eye sight gets considerably worse every year, my periodic lower back pain has become chronic, and my mental function is a mess. If things keep degenerating at this rate I’ll be a disaster by my mid-50s.

Speaking of being old, today I was recognized (among other teachers) at the district’s Back-to-School breakfast for 20 years of service. The last time I was supposed to be recognized (15 years), they decided not to say the names, and I believe when I hit 10 years they also didn’t do it (I remember being LIVID at 15 that they picked my year AGAIN to skip it). Evidently my colleagues were thrown by the fact that I’ve been teaching so long because they were bringing it up all day. I did start fairly young (I was 24) and have stayed in the same place the whole time, so that probably has a lot to do with it. Still, it was kind of nice, after being denied recognition for my last two milestones, to be recognized so much today. 20 years is a LONG ASS TIME to be in the same job, especially when you’re 44. I was trying to figure out when I’ll have been teaching longer than not and I guess it will be when I’m 49 or 50? Because then I’ll have been teaching for 25 years, and wasn’t teaching for 24. That will be crazy.

And now, on to some happier news.

Both kids had good first days back at school. I turned in the proper paper work for our son to leave on his own and he walked home with a friend on Monday and alone today. We’re definitely still working on what the 1ish hour he’ll be alone at home should look like, but I think that will be easier once he’s back at the dojo 2-3 weekday afternoons. I also cancelled our wait list spot with the aftercare program AND was able to decrease my monthly contribution to our Dependent Childcare Account, because I realized that without aftercare this fall, I’ll be about $1K short of the $5K in qualifying childcare costs (our daughter’s summer camps don’t count because she was 14 all summer). I cannot believe we won’t be paying for aftercare at all this school year! I’m SO EXCITED!

I also won’t be taking my daughter to swimming (she’ll need to take the bus and with the extra 15 minutes and the bus line she’s close to, it’s doable) which means most days of the week I get to just DRIVE HOME WITHOUT STOPPING ANYWHERE FIRST. I can’t really believe this. My guess is, it will improve my quality of life significantly, and I am SO, SO EXCITED to not be driving my kids around so much this year. I’m even going to take my son to the dojo on the bus, which I prefer to trying to park in the middle of the Mission. Maybe by the end of the year, he’ll be able to bus to the dojo on his own! (I’m not banking on this, but I bet it’ll be possible).

Tomorrow (Wednesday) is my first day with students. I have my rosters printed, my desks numbered, my turn in baskets and no-name trays labeled and my copies made (for the first few days). I even drew on my windows! (I REALLY did not want to do it this year, but I love my windows catching everyone’s eyes when they’re stuck in traffic in front of my classroom, so I sucked it up and got it done.) My classroom looks good and I feel good about what I have planned for the first three days. I’m honestly kind of shocked I got my shit together as well as I did, since I got in late AND had to leave early both Monday and Tuesday because of my kids’ first days. I didn’t even start actually preparing for Wednesday until mid-Monday and at least an hour of that time was spent looking for a handout I never ended up locating. I obviously still have tons to do, but I’m confident I can get through tomorrow with minimal issues.

I wanted to write more but now it’s late and I need a good night’s sleep. Last night I didn’t remember about the laundry until almost midnight so I had to stay up until 1am to hang my husband’s work shirts. It sucked, and I need to make up some time tonight.

How it went (work + refrigerator)

The first two days back at work, while managing the new fridge, have been… well you’ll see if you keep reading.

Thursday

On Thursday, I woke up before my first alarm and got out of bed rather quickly. Without kid lunches to make or cats to feed I was ready to leave the house in under 20 minutes.

I’m glad I left early because all the schools I pass that great serious traffic jams, were already in session. I even got a parking spot in front of my classroom and got the final piece of bulletin board paper up before our first meeting.

The before-lunch session was fine. A representative from our new SEL program came and attempted to sell us all on it, then gave us time to explore the site. It looks good. We’ve tried untold numbers of SEL programs and never stuck with one, so I remain skeptical.

Lunch was catered Mexican food, which was yummy. The allotted lunch time was too long though, I would have appreciated a shorter lunch and getting to leave earlier.

If you wonder what a teacher professional development is like, this pretty much sums it up.

The afternoon session featured two activities that felt unnecessary (the first) and agonizing (the second). I had so much trouble completing the second activity – it was like my brain was stalled out and I could not turn it over. It was a nice final reminder of how the kids may feel on the first couple days, which I contend is the only good reason for coming to this before-school PD day.

At 4pm I followed my friend to her house and we exchanged keys. I left my car there in case she needed it, and I jumped into her (giant) F-150 truck. Then I sat in a ton of traffic, marveling at how high I was and how much I felt like I could just drive over everyone.

At my other friend’s house we got the fridge down the stairs and into the truck without much trouble. This was probably the only step that was easier than I was expecting…

Driving the fridge up to the city was no problem. Nothing flew out the back or anything. (Why yes, I was worried about that possibility.)

At home we got the fridge out of the truck and into the garage without only one misstep – one of the wheels on the the hand truck my friend lent me IMMEDIATELY shattered when we tried to move the fridge with it. Luckily the fridge had wheels on the bottom so we could roll it into the garage.

I filled the truck on the way back down at Costco; it was half full and it still took almost 17 gallons ($71!). I do not miss filing my car up with gas. (But also, I’ve never had a car that had bigger than a 15 gallon tank so, yeah.)

After I returned the truck, got my car, and picked up my daughter, we headed back home. It was 8pm before we got back. My husband, daughter and I got the fridge up the stairs. It was really hard, even harder than I expected.

New fridge, waiting for doors.

Then I spent a couple hours changing the handles of both doors – so they would open from the left -before I put them on. It ended up being a really long day, and instead of feeling relieved that we’d gotten the fridge all the way upstairs, I was still wondering if I was going to regret it.

Doors on! This actually took hours and was frustrating because all the little plastic things that were in the screw holes I needed fell apart and I had to dig them out. I plugged it in that first night to make sure it was still working after all that jostling.

Friday

Friday morning I helped my daughter get out the door by 8am, and then headed to work. Instead of getting in before the traffic, I arrived after it.

I actually got a lot done on Friday. Instead of just throwing all my Spanish language novels onto the new shelving unit (which I secured to the wall!) I actually put them in alphabetical order, pulling some for the 1B library as well. I was so pleased I got it all done.

Yes, I’m using a DVD storage shelf, because the books fit perfectly on it.

I helped two friends put up their bulletin boards, and organized my hanging files. Before I left, I cleaned up so that my room would be ready for students to meet on Monday. (I won’t be in charge of them, but I volunteered my room to light a fire under my ass to get it ready). It doesn’t sound like a lot, but I was pleased.

I picked up my son from my parents’ house on the way home. We decided it would be good for him to practice walking home from school again, this time with his own key, so we stopped by the house to grab his Apple Watch and key and then I dropped him off at school. He did a great job again, and we’re all feeling confident that he can manage walking home alone next week.

Back at the house I pulled our current fridge out and cleaned the space, which was truly disgusting.

Honestly, I thought it would be worse.

After I cleaned up the space – I just rolled the old fridge by the oven and plugged it back in – I pulled the new fridge over to see how well it fit. It was SO CLOSE to fitting. The only reason it didn’t fit was because my cabinets are not straight.

It fits on one side, but not the other. Grrrrr!

Here is the part where I gloss over how I tried to use my oscillating saw to cut a sold 1/2 inch off the whole bottom and it didn’t really work , so I just shaved some off a bit and then sandpapered it like crazy. The oscillating saw was so loud and so hard to manage. I kept thinking I had taken off enough but then it still wouldn’t fit. Finally I just pushed it into place, despite the face that it clearly didn’t have enough clearance. I really hope we don’t have to move it again ever.

So tight!

I spent another hour or so putting all the drawers and shelves back in. I have to say, my friend took really good care of this fridge and everything was in pristine condition.

Fridge – there is on piece for the bottom of the door that I don’t have, but luckily my friend found it!
Bottom Freezer! This is the whole reason I did all this. I sure hope I like it as much as I think I will!

I turned it on around 5pm and by 8pm it was cold enough to move all the food over from the other fridge, which we then pushed into the back room so it could get warm. We’ll be moving it downstairs tomorrow.

So far I really like this fridge. That piece we are missing is important and once we get it we can reconfigure the shelves a bit (right now we need a spot for tall stuff that will eventually be on the door). I keep reminding myself that I haven’t found a model with a bottom fridge that would fit between the counters and under the cabinets, and that I was able to move it all and install it for almost nothing (just the $70 to fill up my friend’s truck). It’s been a lot of work and stressful, but it’s in beautiful shape and seems to be working perfectly and it fits well in the kitchen, so I think it was the right move. I’ll check back in in a week.

All ready to go!

Last Day of Summer Break

RIP summer break!, as my daughter would say. Tomorrow I’m contractually obligated to be at school, participating in professional learning. It’s always a rough day, but I’m thankful for it, because I wouldn’t be very productive on the first day back anyway, so I might as well flail about in a bunch of meetings, instead of when I have time to do things I actually care about.

The first day back also is a reminder of how bored our students are on their first day back, which is why I always plan games for the first couple days.

I can’t really believe summer break is over. I feel like I really wasted this past week. My house is in shambles, my classroom is a mess, I didn’t even manage to get the kids’ rooms in decent shape, despite them being home this week. It definitely feels like I failed, and I fear I’ll really be regretting my lack of effort later. But honestly, I could not seem to muster whatever was required to get shit done this past week and half, so I guess I just have to hope that the repercussions are not too dire.

Anyway, I am soooo glad that I had a week and a half of re-entry time between Hawaii and returning to work, because ho boy did I need it. I can’t remember a time when I was less productive than last week. My brain really did feel broken, and all the articles about dementia floating around (I think a study came out linking impaired sight and hearing to dementia at earlier ages?) were not helping.

But tomorrow I’ll have some time to put my “working” hat on, and hopefully I’ll even get a few things done before 3pm.

After 3pm, I’ll be borrowing my friend-from-work’s truck and taking it to another friend’s house to load a refrigerator into the truck bed. Then I’ll be driving home, and hopefully getting it upstairs so we can see if it will work in our kitchen.

I have to admit, I’m VERY ambivalent about this fridge. I’ve been actively NOT committing to it for years, (yes, you read that right, years PLURAL) but my friend was finally like, I NEED to get this out of my house and since it’s free, is a little bigger than our fridge, has a bottom freezer, and (almost) fits in the very restrictive spot our kitchen has for a refrigerator, I feel like I can’t pass up the opportunity. We’ve been worried our fridge would bite the bullet many times, and buying a new one is so uninspiring because the only two that fit are basically the exact same as what we have. This one is different – bigger and nicer – and it has a freezer on the bottom (which I’ve wanted for a while), and measuring suggests I’ll only have to cut about 3/4 of an inch from the bottom lip of our cabinet for it to fit.

I feel like I used to be ALL about taking advantage of a situation like this, but now all I can think about are the things that could go wrong. What if we can’t get it out of the house, or into the truck, or out of the truck? What if it still won’t fit, even if I cut the cabinets? The freezer door opens outward and the trays pull out and what if that design annoys me? What if the extra 2 inches of depth is really annoying when we’re opening the doors? What if I move everything out of the old refrigerator and we can’t even get the new one in the spot!? And then I have to put everything back into the old refrigerator and then move the new one downstairs to the very back of the house. (This is the only reason I committed, because the downstairs fridge is truly heinous and we have plenty of space down there for a bigger one, so we will be using it regardless.)

Ugh! I really don’t want to be doing this, but I’m worried I’ll regret it later when my fridge dies on me and I can’t find anything else that will fit there except the exact same boring fridge we already have, and it will cost $800 to boot.

Blerg. I really do not recognize myself here. I used to be so gung-ho to attempt stuff like this, but right now I’m freaking DREADING the whole endeavor. At least we’re getting the first really hard part done tomorrow, so it’s not looming and amplifying all the other back-to-school anxieties.

Speaking of back-to-school anxieties, we’ve been managing some REALLY big feelings around starting high school these past few days. Today, I asked my daughter to go through some of her larger books, and she made a pile with all her books about dragons and fairies, and then she promptly started sobbing and I realized I had picked exactly the WRONG day to be doing any of this. We did a lot of snuggling in front of the fifth episode of Good Girl’s Guide to Murder afterward, which almost made up for it, but still, it was an unforced error I’m definitely regretting. Luckily the teeth cleaning appointments and ADHD meds/sports clearance appointment went fine. Her pediatrician even called me in the morning and asked if we’d like to take a newly opened spot to see her instead of the random guy, to which I very appreciatively said YES! The pharmacy even had her ADHD meds in stock! A miracle!

Tonight I went to the dojo and I was able to SIT ON MY KNEES! Like fully and for a couple of minutes. It didn’t feel great, but I wasn’t in agony and it was absolutely the first time I’ve been able to sit that way since my injury in February. I’ve been working on knee flexion again this past week – after taking the summer off – and I was starting to wonder if I’d ever be able to sit on my knees again, so this felt phenomenal. Later, I was able to sit cross legged for the meditation, which was also a first.

Of course, when I stood up afterward, my knee felt kind of awful, and kicking felt precarious, but I”m hoping it will pass quickly and that I can keep making progress toward full flexion in my injured knee. My knee always feels pretty stiff and sore after I work on bending it, so I’m not surprised that it felt especially stiff and sore after today. I can’t really believe that I was able to sit like that today. I honestly got hot eyes, and almost started crying I was so happy.

And this post has been all over the place, just like my brain these days. Here’s to hoping tomorrow at work is not awful, and that we can at least get this refrigerator up to the city without too many issues. If anyone has any refrigerator-moving advice, I will definitely listen! Please share!

Wins, small and big

First of all, seeing Chappell Roan at Outside Lands was phenomenal. Her performance was amazing, the crowd was INSANE (the largest crowd ever recorded at Outside Lands), and we all had the best time. I am so, SO glad that I got to go.

Chappell Roan looking fine in her “Hot to go” outfit!
So many fans with so many phones.
80,000 people were there to see her. The crowd was intense.

And now, some other wins, both small and not so small, that I’m trying to appreciate right now.

  • Our Gap order came really early, which means I was able to start the returns for my daughter’s jeans (too big) and my son’s school shirts (too small) today, AND order replacements while the sale was still going on. Luckily, the only thing that did fit was my pair of $10 final-sale vegan leather black pants. Woot!
  • I was able to set up a new cell line on my daughter’s old Apple Watch. Sure, my husband had to get the number changed from a Philadelphia area code (WHY?!) to an SF area code, but otherwise, I managed it. I’m really bad at stuff like that, so I’m considering it a win.
  • I was able to return a pair of Nike’s I bought for my son in mid-July (but we hadn’t opened yet because they are WHITE), so he could pick out his first pair of Air Jordan’s today. They were on sale but still VERY expensive. He better not have a crazy growth spurt in the next few months.
  • I was REALLY bummed out that I forgot to bring my friend’s birthday card to the dojo on Saturday so I could leave it in her locker, but it ended up being a nice to have to walk there this afternoon. We even dropped the Gap stuff off at UPS on the way into the Mission. It was sunny for the whole (4+ mile) walk and we did a nice combo of listening to our audiobook (sharing my AirPods) and chatting. Oh, and that is when we got the new shoes.
  • At the end of the walk, my son practiced walking home from school by himself. I walked about two blocks behind him, and could see him most of the time. He did a great job, and feels confident that he can walk home by himself next week. (Right now he’s on the wait list for three afternoons a week at aftercare, and I will admit I kind of don’t want him to get in, so we can stop paying them at all. My husband feels differently. We’ll see what happens.) I can’t believe how mature my youngest child is now. We’re entering a whole new area.
  • I got my allergy shot this morning, followed by my bi-annual pap smear. The two appointments were at two different Kaiser buildings, but the timing was perfect for me to drive from one to the other. Oh, and my ADHD medication was actually refilled last Friday when I ordered it. That hasn’t happened in AGES. So it was all ready for me to pick up this morning. Hooray!
  • Speaking of appointments, two teeth cleanings opened up this Wed morning, the literal last day of my summer break, so I can take the kids in together before school starts. I had to cancel their cleanings in April and the rescheduled appointment was in October, which was basically six months after the one I cancelled. I’m glad we got in before school starts.
  • I was also able to get an appointment for my daughter Wed afternoon to be checked so we can refill her ADHD meds AND get her high school sports form filled out. We won’t be seeing her regular pediatrician, but it’s the guy who saw us while our regular Ped was on mat leave so at least he’s not a total stranger. ( We just saw our reg Ped at the start of the summer, to get a camp physical filled out, so it’s not such a bummer to miss her this time.)
  • I remembered to text my friend before her medical procedures today, and to text my other friend on her birthday. I also texted two other people with birthdays today (three birthdays on the same day!) It felt good to actually remember to show up for people, even in small ways. I’ve been so scattered and distracted lately, I was worried I was going to forget.
  • Tomorrow (Tuesday) I’m taking my son to the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk because we don’t have anything planned and I we need to use our value season passes once more to make them worth it. The value passes don’t work on weekends, so a random Tuesday before schools starts it is!

And now it’s technically Tuesday, so I’m going to put this bad boy up. I’m sure I’m forgetting something (I’m ALWAYS forgetting something these days), but I’m determined that actually pressing “publish on this, will not be what I forget.

{I almost forgot! I went to upload the photos to WordPress and then got distracted and was heading to bed when I realized I never hit publish! This is my life now. My brain is seriously broken.}