Not a Wasted Word

Ugh. Again, it feels like I’m swimming against the current. And every day I get home and feel brain dead. The idea of writing here is not one I can embrace, if I even consider it.

But. But! The weekend was okay. Good even? My parents’ anniversary dinner was very much appreciated. I think they felt loved and celebrated and that was all we were hoping for. Also the food was AMAZING. We went to Nari in Japantown and did the chef’s tasting menu. The food was incredible and abundant and not even the pouring rain could put a damper on the evening.

And Saturday was that kind of day where the Tetris pieces all fit. I cleaned the house in the morning. Went to Sparring and High Belt at the dojo while my son had a friend over. Then I got home and had exactly enough time to take them for an hour of bowling before my parents came to pick me up for dinner. I LOVE when shit fits perfectly like that.

Sunday was something… but I can’t remember what. What was it? Maybe it will come to me. Oh I remember! Dinner at my parents’ house with two close family friends. That was really nice. I haven’t seen either of them in a while, so I appreciated the time with them. Oh! And my husband, son and I walked to Whole Foods just to get out in sun after being stuck inside all Saturday. We also grabbed lunch at his favorite walk-up burger spot and got snow cones on the walk back.

Monday the whole family met up with my parents and sister for a hike. We felt a little constrained in where we could hike because of all the rain last week so we settled on spot on the peninsula between their house and ours, with a paved path. It was a nice walk, with some good views and everyone enjoyed it.

The forecast last Friday didn’t show a single “partly cloudy” icon for 10 days, it was all clouds and rain, but we’ve been getting some nice sun. I’m glad because my sister always craves it when she visits in January – London is pretty dark and damp this time of year.

I have more to say, but it’s Thursday and I have no prep and it’s going to be a doozy. So I must sign off. Hopefully this weekend I can write more. If not I’ll see you next week.

This was a week. Nothing particularly bad about it, but I was just never where I wanted to be at work. Not having internet on campus today did NOT help things, but luckily I had stayed up late the night before to score the oodles of late work that came streaming in when students returned from the break, AND since I was up late I saw the email warning of the internet outage so I was able to download some materials I needed before I got to work. Also I was able to hotspot service to my computer every once in a while – usually don’t get ANY cell service at work without WiFi – so it was the best possible no-internet scenario.

But I really didn’t like how it felt to come into work without having done anything over the break. I think it would have been fine if I’d gotten more done the week before the break, but I was covering someone else during my preps that whole week, and I just wasn’t really thinking ahead like I usually do. I think I need to either work really hard the last week so that I’m ready to come back when I walk out of my classroom, or spend a day or a couple of afternoons during my break to get ready. I just hate feeling so underwater, on top of just dealing with how hard it is to get back to the daily grind.

But there is no real time to wallow in the failures of this past week (especially now that I’ve identified what I want to do differently). Instead, some thoughts about what is coming up.

It’s actually kind of a big weekend for me. It’s my parents’ 50th wedding anniversary today! My sister came into town (from London) last night, so she’s here for this special day and my mom’s birthday (the 16th). Tomorrow we’re taking them to a very nice restaurant in the city. When I made the reservation (many months ago), there was a question about if it was a special occasion and I marked “Anniversary” and yesterday they texted asking me for the anniversary couple’s names. I’m excited to see what they are going to do for them.

My sister and I looked into French Laundry and some other super high end, super well known restaurants in the area, but in the end we decided we couldn’t afford $300 a person (before drinks, health care add-ons, and gratuity) so my husband helped me find something more in our price range. I definitely have some feelings about the fact that I couldn’t spring for something REALLY impressive, especially after I learned my cousin is throwing a big surprise 50th anniversary party for my aunt and uncle later this month (it honestly never occurred to me to do that either!), but I’m trying to be kind to myself. We are taking them out somewhere nice and I know they will appreciate it. It’s okay to not be where I expected to be at this point in my life. We’re comfortable and financially secure and that’s better than a lot of people our age can say. I just hope my parents feel celebrated.

My sister being in town is actually kind of stressful for me, but I’m trying to let any anxious thoughts or feelings pass without grasping at them too much. My sister and I aren’t especially close, and she can have hard-to-meet expectations. My SIL’s somewhat disastrous (for her and my ILs, nothing that involved us) recent trip is not helping, but I’m reminding myself that their experience has no bearing on ours.

The good news is that we already have some fun things planned, so I know I’m going to share experiences with her that should be positive. We have dinner tomorrow night, then another dinner (with family friends) at my parents’ house Sunday night. Monday we plan on taking a hike with my kids for my mom’s birthday (she’s not super interested in seeing my kids, so doing something she likes while seeing them will help) which should be nice because being outside and moving our bodies is built in. The following weekend we’re seeing an SFSketchFest show with our parents (my Xmas present to all of them). I think if she and I can just do one other thing together, without our parents, we’ll both feel satisfied.

It’s hard for me when my I have to negotiate more-than-normal obligations with my first family, and also find the time to make sure my current family’s needs are being met. Sometimes it can feel like my own needs have to be pushed aside. I’m trying to ask for a couple moments here and there and am already getting some push back. It doesn’t help that my husband isn’t feeling great and now I’m also starting to feel twinges in my throat and ears. The last thing I need right now is to get sick. I have been taking Umcka and Airborne so hopefully it won’t hit me super hard. And if I need to ask for time, and manage sulky, pouty behavior to get it, I will do that. My husband is doing a TON of work-adjacent (for his career, but not required/reimbursed by his current employer) trips this spring so I will be reminding him of that frequently.

And I think that may be all I got right now. Hopefully after this weekend I’ll be feeling better.

I am ALL OVER THE PLACE right now. It’s been hard to get my bearings since the winter break. So here are some ping pong thoughts on all manner of things bouncing around in my head right now.

The final weekend of the break was nice. I took my son to the Pinball Museum in Alameda on Saturday because it was raining and I knew neither he nor I could just stay home all day. We had a nice time. We played a lot of two player games, and he never got mad when he didn’t win (or as he wasn’t winning). He really is getting so much more mature; some activities that used to be tortuous with him are quite enjoyable these days. We also finished Jon Scalzi’s Starter Villain and started Jon Scalzi’s The Kaiju Preservation Society, which relates nicely to Monarch, which we’re watching as a family on AppleTV+. We’re excited for the new Japanese Godzilla movie.

Sunday both kids came with me to the Great Highway to ride bikes while I ran. That was really nice. We all kind of did our own thing, and we all appreciated being outside. The 13yo is VERY 13 right now, so I was super pleased that she came and seemed to enjoy being outside. They didn’t even bicker during the car rides.

There was plenty of bickering at home though. By Sunday my kids had achieved the impossible: I was almost excited to return to work the next day! After two weeks of SO MUCH QT, I think we were all ready to get away from each other for a significant portion of each day.

I didn’t do ANY work over the break. I didn’t even open my work email (I actually moved the Gmail app, which I use exclusively for work email, into a random folder so I wouldn’t click on it out of habit). I figured this was okay because we had a Professional Development day on Monday 1/8 and I could do the bare minimum during those meetings to get through the first day back with students. I was also able to stop by my classroom on Monday morning to turn my Chromecart on and check on copies (which I made before I left). And it was, for the most part, fine. But I spent much of Tuesday realizing that I needed to do an every growing list of things, and many of them require some time and effort. So yeah, I guess not doing any work during the break was a mistake. Not shocking. The question then is, what is the correct balance of working during a break so that coming back is not a disaster, but also giving myself the time to really turn off my work brain? I have no idea and predict I’ll spend my whole life trying unsuccessfully to figure it out.

On a totally related note, I’ve been really struggling to plan for work this week. It’s like I can’t jump start my brain, it just keeps revving but not actually turning over. I sat with both planners (last year’s and this year’s) for over an hour on Monday and all I really had to do was copy last year’s plans onto this year’s week and I couldn’t seem to do it. I really hope my brain starts working again soon. It’s been a lot harder to get back into the swing of things since the break. Maybe because I did no work for two whole weeks? Aack! So now I have to not only worry about not getting concrete things done, but also not being able to access my brain in the right way when I get back!

Tuesday’s snowballing list of “work shit I did not do over break” got so big that I ended up not going to the dojo like I planned that afternoon. I didn’t even bring my son for his class. Instead I stayed late in my classroom prepping for the rest of the week. Then I ran an errand on the way home. It was the right move, but I was disappointed. I’m going to try to go today.

I also spent quite a bit of time putting everything back into the downstairs bathroom, WHICH IS FINALLY DONE! All the stuff sitting all over my bedroom was driving me crazy so I was really excited to put it all away. (You know when you start cleaning up one area and then all the still-messy areas bother you more? That feeling multiplied by varying amounts of my bathroom being strewn all over my bedroom for almost two months). I also really love the new tile. Now I just need to replace the handheld shower head (it can’t handle our water pressure and sprays water all over the wall behind it) and the bathroom will be done! I’m so happy with it. The downstairs bathroom has always been on of my favorite rooms and I’m so glad that is still the case.

The house is starting to look good. Like visibly, on a daily basis. There are no longer bags lying around with stuff I still need to work through (I’VE CLEARED THE BAGS! HOORAY!). And when there is clutter left over from the day I know where most of it goes, so I put it away! It’s not done, to be sure. We still have a lot of work to do in the kitchen (pantry needs to be purged and the fridge and freezer need to be cleaned, badly), but the living rooms are in nice shape.

And yet, I could still do more. So now I have to start deciding… to what end? Where do I stop? And if I’ve decided that I’m done purging and organizing, what goals will I set for myself moving forward. Do I want the common living spaces to look pristine before I go to bed? Do I want things more clean now that I clearing them off doesn’t take as long? In the past I’ve found that keeping the house in REALLY good shape takes a dedicated 30-45 minutes every night. I usually don’t find that time commitment worth it, and start to backslide. If I’m only going to spend 10-15 minutes a night, how and where do I focus that energy? A messy house doesn’t really stress me house on a daily basis, it’s more that I hate feeling like I don’t want to host because the work required to make my house guest-worthy is too much to contemplate. So I’m really not sure where we’re going to land on this project, but I am super pleased with the progress we’ve made.

It’s been pretty cold lately (for us, which comparatively I understand is not cold at all). We keep our thermostat pretty low (63* when people are in the house – 58* at night) and only turn the heat on downstairs to triage when it feels freezing. That means it can get as low as 52* downstairs at night! I put flannel sheets on all the beds and switched out or light comforter for a super warm blanket (we also use a weighted blanket), but it’s still pretty chilly at night. Last night I kept my warm socks on while I slept! When I first put the warm bedding on I was way too hot at night, but now I’m wondering if I should add another blanket. Or just sleep in a sweatshirt.

And… I should probably get back to doing work. It’s my long prep and tomorrow I have no prep, and lots needs to be ready for a day with four block periods and no breaks. I was hoping that writing this would help quiet my brain, but it doesn’t seem to have done the trick. We shall see.

How are is your brain doing post-holidays? How do you balance prepping for your return and the need for rest during a break from work?

The winter break is almost over. This weekend we have to do all our regular weekend chores, like lots of laundry and making lunches. We’re all starting to think about heading back to school.

But it was a good break. Here are five highlights from our two weeks off.

1. Camping clean up

The camping trip was a lot of fun and we’re almost done unpacking it. My son and I hung up the tent earlier this week and my husband and I got it folded down enough to fit in the bag. The sleeping bags are in plastic bags (to prevent mildew) in the shed. We just need to take the batteries out of the flashlights and later an and repack the camping box. We’re just going to keep everything in there and throw it into the car again next time.

2. Grass Valley with best friends

My daughter and I got back from camping on Friday afternoon, I did six loads of laundry that evening and then we repacked for two nights in Grass Valley with our besties. My daughter has four best friends and their moms are my best friends and we met with them in the middle of their stay in Grass Valley. We played games and laughed so hard and had a dance off and laughed SO HARD. It was a great trip and I was so glad we got to go. It was a ton of fun. I feel so lucky to be a part of this group. I am endlessly thankful for all of them. .

3. Family visiting

My husband sister and her two kids were in town for most of the break, but because of camping and Grass Valley we only had a week to see them. We met them at playgrounds and rode Muni trains with them (my nephew LOVES transportation). I went to the Discovery Museum with them today and it was a lot of fun. It was also exhausting. I am so glad we are done with that little-kid phase (they are 4 and almost 6); I do not miss it.

I used to go to the Discovery Museum all the time with my own kids and I remember how haggard I always felt when I left. I felt that way today! My nephew and I spent forever piling tanbark onto a vertical conveyor belt thing and turning the wheel to move it upwards. It was so boring.

I’m so glad I don’t have to spend whole days that way anymore. Also, my own kids were AMAZING with their little cousins. They don’t have a ton of experience playing with such young kids, but they really showed up for their cousins, who idolize them.

4. Dave & Busters

As I decluttered some drawers I found a gift card to Dave & Busters that my parents gifted my son LAST Christmas. Wednesday is half-off games day so I took both kids for a couple hours. We weren’t the only ones who had that idea and it was pretty crowded, but they had a good time. I sat at a table and ordered a soda and plowed through Organized Living, which was overdue at the library. It was pretty hilarious to see me sitting in that chaotic building with a book about minimalism and beautiful living spaces.

I had to read the rest of the book pretty quickly, so I skipped the vignettes about the designers and just read the Tips and Tricks pages. I got some good ideas! And the kids had a lot of fun playing the games and getting enough tickets to get one good prize each.

5. Continued Decluttering

I kept up my decluttering efforts this past week. I got all the office supplies and even the random junk drawers organized. (I FOUND THE NAME PATCHES!) And then I used a couple ideas from Organized Living to tackle the hallway closet and a couple of pain points in the kitchen. I ordered a couple things from Amazon while I was at Dave & Busters, and they came today.

Of course sometimes you don’t need to buy anything new to organize. This box (that the four tool boxes came in!) fits all my Costco and IKEA bags perfectly. I use these bags to do laundry and I am so pleased they all fit so perfectly in this random box. They used to take up an entire shelf and were always tangled up with each other.

And in the kitchen I got a magnetic shelf with a hanging paper towel rack. Our old paper towel holder couldn’t manage the giant Costco paper towel rolls and was always getting moved around the kitchen (or knocked off the island by the cat). Also, the coffee prep stuff was always on the counter, needing to be moved when we wiped it down. Now it all lives in the side of the refrigerator.

Today I scheduled a cleaning lady to come on January 29th for a first visit and then again on February 16th, the day we leave for Mexico City, so the house will be clean when my in-laws stay here. It will be clean, and dare I say it organized! I am so pleased it’s actually coming together. I feel like I’m coming at some old problems with new solutions, and am feeling hopefully that they just might work!

Honestly, this break has been fine. Better than fine! We’ve had a nice balance of time together, time with extended family, time with friends, and time by ourselves. There have been no crises (I was remembering my friend’s mental health crisis that dominated last year’s winter break – I’m so glad I’m not dealing with anything like that this year). No one is sick. It’s been a good couple of weeks. And yet I feel like I’m swimming in anxiety, that I’m not getting any rest. I’m trying to figure out why I’m struggling so much, but I can’t quite figure it out.

There is definitely my house, which needs more work. A lot more work. It’s easy to think mid-February is a ways a way, but I know it will be here before I’m ready for it. And while I’d love to feel less stress about getting it ready, I also know that I need that stress to spur me to actually do the work. If I weren’t stressed I wouldn’t engage with, what is for me, the very unpleasant exercise of going through years of junk and making the hard decisions about what to keep and what to toss, and then how to organize what is left. These are not my strengths and the only way I’m going to engage in work like this is if doing so alleviates an even more unpleasant feeling – the stress of knowing it still needs to be done.

I think work is also causing me stress. Whenever I consider thinking about it, or getting started on it, I stop, telling myself I can get what I need to done on Monday, our professional development day. This year has definitely been challenging and while I complained a fair amount about the prep time my student teacher was using, I also recognize how helpful she was in my classes, especially in the multilevel class and with my newcomers in the period after that. It’s going to be really hard to serve all my students’ needs without her in my classroom.

I think I need to find a way to just not care so much about work in general. I had to wake up today, on my break, at 7am to go to jury duty because the idea of spending a week of work not knowing if I’d have to take one or more sub days felt more stressful than burning a day or two of my break doing something I absolutely hate. And now I missing out on taking my niece and nephew to the Discovery Museum, because today was the day we were going to go. But it’s hard not to care about my job and still do all the hard work required for it. And it’s especially hard to give myself permission to not be at work when there are no subs. A colleague was out earlier this month for two days of jury duty and we all had to cover for him. I hate doing that for other people and I hate asking other people to do it for me.

And…

I wrote all that this morning and not long after I was excused from jury duty. I didn’t even get called into the courtroom! I was one of only 20 people who just randomly didn’t get called. I was so happy. When she said all our names and then told us we could go, I stood up with my hands in the air and whooped. I was so relieved.

And just like that my anxiety evaporated. I guess all this break I’ve been stressed about jury duty, and not knowing if or when I’d be called and then if I’d be able to get out of it. I just hate that kind of uncertainty, the idea that something could come in and hijack my life without me having any say.

Obviously I need to work on accepting uncertainty. Because even when there isn’t something like jury duty threatening to pull the rug out from under me, it could always happen without any warning.

When I got home today I went for a run im the sun. Tomorrow I get to take my niece and nephew to the Discovery Museum (they moved around their plans so we could go). I’m feeling so much better about the last days of my break.

It’s nice to have that feeling of control, even if it just a mirage.

No, actually, it’s not a new me. It’s the same me as always.

I am not one to get swept up in the thrill of the new year and all the promise it brings. I’m dreading 2024, the continuation of two wars, the horrific election cycle ahead, and the probable outcome of said election cycle. I think 2024 is going to be a hard year, and I’m kind of not looking forward to it.

I am not someone who generally makes new years resolutions, or sets goals, or chooses a word for the year. I certainly have, every once in a while, but none of it has ever resulted in much. I am very lucky to have made a habit out of working out and I feel VERY lucky that I’m not trying to lose any weight. I already read (and listen to) plenty of books. I have no real professional ambition and am content/resigned to remain where I am until I retire.

There is plenty I’d love to change about my life. I’d love to learn how to make and stick to a budget. I know a fair amount about the former, but have never manage to maintain the latter. I’d love to keep my house organized, but my MANY attempts have all failed eventually. It’s true that each attempt brings me closer to where I want to be, but the improvements are incremental.

So I won’t make resolutions about budgeting or organizing, because I know that for me, those efforts will be performative. I will continue to declutter my house, in preparation for my in-laws stay here. I will continue to try to spend less, and review my spending when necessary. It’s not a coincidence that both budgeting and organization are two of the biggest hurdles for many women with ADHD. And while my ADHD meds make my life so much more manageable, they are not miracle cures that made either of those obstacles less challenging. So I will continue to make incremental progress in both areas, progress that can’t really be articulated in a new year’s resolution.

As a teacher, I find the fall a much more momentous start of a new year. August is when I learn what the next ten months of my life will look like. I don’t open a new planner on January 1st because I got a new planner in August and it’s half way filled now. My life revolves around the academic calendar, which makes January 1st a lot less impactful.

I have read many “looking back at 2023” posts that make me wonder if I should reflect on the past year. But I don’t see myself writing one of those either. I’m just not feeling it. And I feel weird because pretty much every post I’ve read over the past few days has been reflective or future-focused. I guess this post is me justifying my choices to myself, so I feel like less of a weirdo.

Do you spend time during the new year to reflect on the past twelve months? Do you make New Year’s resolutions or goals or pick a word of the year?

We’re back from our first official family camping trip. We’ve definitely done some limited camping before, but never the four of us as a family, just because. In the past it’s always been some portion of the family, joining others on an already-planned trip.

For our first family camping trip we went to Pinnacles National Park, which is about 2.5 hours south of San Francisco. I will admit that I only heard of Pinnacles before the pandemic. I couldn’t believe there was such a pretty park so close, and I didn’t even know it existed. We picked this part first because it was easy to get to, and because there was hiking to do during the days. Also, we were able to get a spot for two nights during the week between Christmas and New Years (no small feat).

We are definitely amateur campers, but we plan to do this more often this year (our 10yo is a 4th grader who is excited about the parks passes he gets this year), so I’m going to do a little run down of what worked, and what didn’t, for my own future reference as much as anything else.

What worked

Packing. We went camping with the 10yo’s class in September and brought WAY too much stuff. Right after we wrote a list of what we thought we should bring next time and we’ve revisited it in early December to make sure we had everything. This time, we did an incredible job packing. We brought exactly what we needed, and we were able to fit it all, and the four of us, in our Chevy Bolt. A couple actually came over to our camp site on the last night to remark on how unbelievable it was that we were tent camping with a Chevy Bolt. It was definitely packed to the ceiling, and we’re looking into an aluminum carry rack and all-weather storage bag for our lighter stuff (sleeping bags and mats, etc). so that we’re not quite so tight the next time. We already have the hitch on the car (for a bike rack) so it seems pretty easy to get a hauling rack.

Meals. We packed food for our trip with maximum efficiency. The only thing we would change is we’d bring the cooked spaghetti noodles in ziplock bags instead of a glass container (so obvious looking back!) We got In-n-Out for lunch on the way down and back up which left two dinners, two breakfasts and one lunch (on the trail). We brought pasta for the first dinner (cooked noodles in the cooler), hot dogs (cooked over the fire) for the second and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the hike. We also brought some bagels (the 10yo doesn’t eat sandwiches (I KNOW!) and the 13yo doesn’t eat hot dogs). Finally we had instant oatmeal and pour over coffee (pop-up pour over cones! What will they think up next!) for breakfast. We also had s’mores stuff and hot chocolate, some chips and pretzels, and walnuts and cranberries for snacks.

Weather. We really lucked out on the weather. It did rain for about an hour our first night (at 6pm – right when the weather app said it would!), but we cleaned up when it started to sprinkle, so everything was safe when it really started to rain. It was a bummer to make dinner on the wet table, and we didn’t get to build a fire the first night, but everyone (and everything!) stayed dry. And it didn’t rain again until we were leaving the park on Friday morning. It also didn’t get too cold at night. The night before our stay the low was 42*, but both nights we were there the low was a balmy 50*! I was very, very grateful for that. Honestly, on the hike we were a little over dressed and we shed many of our layers as we walked.

Hikes. Speaking of hikes, Pinnacles is a great place for hiking. Unfortunately it’s not a great place for parking (more on that below), but despite not being able to do the hike we wanted on Thursday, we still got in some great hikes.

We did a short two mile hike on Wednesday right when we got there. We got to see the caves and hike up to the Moss Reservoir. The caves were hard to navigate, but otherwise it was a pretty easy hike. The perfect way to start our stay.

Thursday there was a major parking-related snag (more below) that meant we had to forgo the hike I really wanted to do. We ended up walking 8.7 miles on Thursday – 5 miles to and from the main trail heads, and 3.7 miles up to Condor Gulch. The kids were real troopers. I was super bummed to miss out on the High Peaks Trail, but we did get to see them from our hike.

Sleep. I, of course, didn’t sleep great either night, but we went to bed so early (around 9pm) and got up at a decent hour (around 7:30-8am) both days, so I did get a LOT of not very good sleep. Honestly, I’ll take it. Neither kid slept super well the first night, but everyone slept better the second night. Probably because we were all exhausted from all that walking. This may seem like something that didn’t go great, but honestly we slept way better than I was expecting.

Charging the car. There were two chargers by the Visitor’s Center and we were able to get our car on one of them the second night. This meant we had more freedom to choose a spot for lunch on the way back home. We were also able to snag a spot in Gilroy, while we ate at In-n-Out. We did need to wait a little while for one to open up, but it only ended up being 10ish minutes.

The kids. The kids did great. The 10yo was super stoked to go, but definitely struggled with the down time. The 13yo was not super stoked to go (even before she learned she was missing out on a last minute trip with friends because of going), but she really showed up with a positive attitude. They definitely bickered a fair amount, but all in all they were positive and had a good time. I really appreciate both of them and their attitudes.

What didn’t work

Parking. Thursday we got up to the Day Use Area Parking, where all the main hikes start, and there was no where to park. And so many people trying to park. We had to drive back to the campsite and start from there, which was 2.5 miles from all the trail heads. There is sometimes a shuttle, but there wasn’t one that day. I was super bummed out, because I was planning on a 5.6 mile hike for us, and there was no way we could do that with the 5 miles of round trip hiking we’d have to do just to get the trail head and back. I read up a lot about which hikes to take, and not one article mentioned the fact that the day use parking would fill up so fast, and then they’d just close it down until 2:30pm. If we had known we easily could have gotten up there earlier. I was super disappointed. Running a shuttle back and forth seems like such an easy fix. Maybe they do it on the weekends? Or in the summer? There are only spaces for about 50-75 cars across the three day use lots. So many people had to go back down to the campsite to park.

Showers. The campsite says it has showers. And it does. But they are cold. Like, just tap water cold. And in December that tap water is very cold indeed. This wasn’t a big deal for most of us, but the 13yo was quite put out about it. She was feeling VERY greasy and grimy by our third day there.

Campsite. Our campsite was right by the Visitor’s Center and RIGHT by the RV dumping station. I did not love this. We knew where the spot was when we picked it. It was the ONLY spot available for the two nights we wanted, when we changed our reservation. Ultimately it was fine, because we were there mid-week and it wasn’t too crazy, but I was not thrilled with our spot. At least we were close to the bathrooms!

Water. We didn’t bring our big water jug because there was potable water, and we really didn’t have space for it in the car. The water spigot ended up being pretty close, but it was still a pain in the ass to keep filling up our water bottles for everything, especially washing the dishes. We will definitely be investing in a water bag for the next time we camp.

Not much “didn’t work,” actually, which is amazing! All in all it was a great first attempt at family camping. We’re definitely looking at carry hauls for the hitch on the back of the cat so we could add a night to a camping trip in the future, but we’re very pleased with how well we did this time (and two nights felt perfect for me.) I have to admit, I have not generally been a big of fan of camping, but I love hiking and can get behind camping that allows me to walk around in nature for long distances. This definitely delivered on that, and I suspect there are many other places in California that can as well.

Christmas 2023 is in the books. It was a good one, but I’m kind of relieved it’s over. We almost forgot to put out our trash cans tonight, my husband thought it was still Sunday… 😉

December 23rd

Saturday my mom came up and we took the 13yo to get her nose pierced. This was her Christmas present from my parents. She did great. She picked out a nice piece of jewelry and told them where she wanted the piercing. She was clearly nervous, but handled it well. She was VERY excited to get it done. She loves the way it looks.

My mom took both kids back down to her house for the rest of the day and night. It was sunny out so my husband and I walked to lunch in the Mission. We tried out a new burrito spot that was very good. We did some window shopping and some real shopping. I got myself three rings for my three ear piercings, each slightly bigger than the last. I’ve been looking for that for a while, so I was excited to find it at a small, independent store.

We walked around the Mission for several hours and then walked home around 5:30pm. I worked out, then drove to pick up Chinese food from a favorite spot. We watched Killers of the Flower Moon since we had the 3.5 hours to see it all at once. I liked it. It’s not much like the book and I wasn’t sure how it would seem if you didn’t know all the stuff the book tells you. I found that really distracting. I LOVED the book. I think only liked the movie.

Christmas Eve

Sunday morning we had brunch at a new spot that had been getting a lot of amazing write ups. It was awesome. I have to say, three incredible meals out in 24 hours was a special treat.

We drove down to my parents’ house after brunch. The kids had been there for about 24 hours. They decorated Christmas cookies and saw a light show on Saturday. They were excited to do Christmas Eve on Sunday.

We went for a hike in a nearby park. The weather was beautiful and we had a nice time.

Back at the house the kids got to open one present each. My son opened his nunchucks. I got a pair too. We took a little class on them at the dojo holiday party and they were so much fun I got us each a pair for Xmas. We immediately took them outside to practice what we’d learned and try some new tricks. They are hard, but super fun to play around with. I hope my son sticks with them.

After dinner and a round of Dominion, we headed out to see the lights on Eucalyptus, two blocks of totally nuts Christmas decorations in San Carlos.

My family drove straight home after the lights and we put the kids to bed quickly. They were bickering a lot by the end of the night and my husband and I were feeling pretty done. We had been expecting a pretty smooth Christmas Day, but after Christmas Eve evening we weren’t so sure.

Christmas Day

The kids were up and ready by 8:30am, so we headed to my in-laws house. They had breakfast ready for us – chilaquiles, my favorite! The kids opened their presents. The 13yo got a tong of art supplies and the 10yo got three bamboo swords. He was very into them and spent the rest of the morning almost knocking stuff over as he pulled them out of their sheaths.

Around noon I snuck out for a run. My in-laws live near Golden Gate Park and last year I went for a run on Christmas Day which was really fun, so I went again today. I guess I am making it a Christmas tradition.

The weather was beautiful and there were some new art installations. I love taking a break during Christmas Day to clear my head and produce some much needed endorphins.

We had lunch at my in-laws, then dropped stuff off at home (I took a shower), and then we headed back down to my parents’ house. My husband was clearly hitting a wall so I decided to give him some time to recharge at my parents’ house.

When we got there the kids opened presents. My parents had a big spread of food to eat all day – we never sat down for a meal. The kids were happy with their presents. So were my parents. It was a nice afternoon.

My son out together a Snap Ship. We played a round of Skull. We ate SO. MUCH. FOOD. Around 6:30 the kids started losing it so we packed up and headed home.

My husband did a lot of work unpacking stuff. I did some work too. My husband had gone to bed and I’m writing this on my phone. I’ll probably head to bed myself soon.

Tomorrow we pack for camping. Wednesday morning we drive down to Pinnacles. Let the rest of the break begin!

I hope everyone had a lovely December 25th, no matter what the day means to you.

Break has officially started! I already feel so much better than I did last night.

Run

I got out before the fog came in. It was so nice to be out in the sun. And it was nice to get a break from the kids in the middle of the day. I came back feeling energized.

Fused Beads

Both kids got a fused bead set from our Elf on the Shelf, who knew we’d need a little something to do today. My son’s was a Mandalorian set. I made Asohka and he made Boba Fett and R2-D2. My daughter got a Sanrio set and I made the frog. I made mine into ornaments.

Library + Glasses

We picked up some books on hold, and I found a couple more I’m hoping my son will read over the break. He’s at that stage where he could read longer books but he’s loathe to actually do it. It’s been hard finding books he’s interested in. If we let him he’ll just read Big Nate comics on his pad all day.

On the way I got my new glasses adjusted. They were a mess and I wasn’t really wearing them because of it. But now they are fixed and I like them a lot. I’m so pleased that worked out because they’ll be closed for a while.

Starter Villain

My son and I are listening to John Scalzi’s Starter Villain. It is NOT a kids book. Or even a YA novel. There is a ton of swearing. So. Many. F-bombs. And we both love it. It’s smart and funny and my son is super into it. We laugh a lot. Will Wheaton is a great narrator. It’s fun to have a book just we are listening to, as opposed to the Lockwood & Co. series that the whole family listens to (we’re on the last one of that now!) We listened to it while we did fused beads today, and while we folded the kitchen towels.

Dominion

One of my last minute Christmas presents was a deck-building game called Dominion. It came today and I decided my son and I should play it, instead of wrapping it. So we did. And it was really fun. I think it will become a family favorite.

We also watched an episode of Monarch tonight. It’s good, but we’re caught up and have to wait for the next episode. My kids have so rarely watched shows like that. It’s kind of funny to see them deal with the waiting.

I didn’t get any decluttering done today, but I’m okay with that. I did a ton of laundry and the house is in decent shape, despite us having out in it all day. Hopefully I’ll get a little more done tomorrow.

I have had a couple instances where I needed something random and knew it exactly where it was, because of the decluttering. That was pretty awesome and it’s giving me the incentive I need to keep going.

Well I did it. I made it to the winter break. Limping to the finish line. Maybe crawling. But I got there!

Work was brutal. I subbed during my prep all week. I hosted rainy day lunch twice. One day I literally had not one minute of break – I had to ask someone to come watch kids in my classroom while I peed.

Afternoons weren’t as bad though, which is probably why I survived. And in the end I got all the assessments graded. And the projects. Most grades are inputted. I said goodbye to my student teacher and felt a lot of feelings about it.

It struck me today that this week holds the shortest days of the year, and yet they have absolutely felt like the longest days.

And now I have two weeks at home with my kids. I’m being reminded tonight that if I don’t set some boundaries around screen time (mostly the 13yo and her phone), there will be constant conflict. I shall be figuring out what those boundaries look like tonight, so I can communicate them clearly tomorrow.

I am so glad work is over. And I am looking forward to the holidays. But I need a day or two to decompress in between. I hope Friday and Saturday can provide that. Friday I’m with the kids and I have a couple very low key things planned for them (trip to the library, a melty bead project for each of them), plus a run by myself to relieve some of the pent-up stress. Saturday they are going to my parents’ house and I am so looking forward to 24 hours to do with as I please. I don’t even have that much wrapping left! Right now I can’t even fathom how I might use that time, when I consider it my brain goes blank. I hope after tomorrow I can start contemplating a whole day to spend as I see fit.

In the meantime, here are some photos of the sunset yesterday. I pulled over into some key spots on my way home to get these. I absolutely love Crystal Springs Reservoir and the way the fog can sit on top of the mountains. It’s one of my favorite places in the world.