Retraction

Thank you for educating me on the necessity of these steps. When I went to the beach, it looked like this.

But clearly that is not the case elsewhere. Just because I have not seen the behavior that warrants an action doesn’t mean it isn’t happening. I do believe officials are making decisions based on our overall well-being in these impossible times. I will remember that moving forward.

The reality is that our mental health cannot be a concern right now. It just can’t. And of course protecting our physical health is the main goal.

The state superintendent of California announced today that we will not be returning to school this academic year.

I am gutted. I expected this decision, but somehow the confirmation has totally leveled me. I can’t stop crying.

I’ll never see my 8th graders again. Not in real life. I won’t get to see them graduate or hug them after they’ve walked. The grief they must be feeling… I can’t imagine.

I haven’t told my kids yet. They will be devastated.

I need to change my mindset and start taking this one week at a time. If I look ahead anymore than that, I won’t be able to keep it together.

6 Comments

  1. You are the second person who is a teacher whose schools have announced closures for the year in the last two days. I am so sorry. I know it is hard. D is in 5th grade & in theory his school will resume 5/15, but I honestly wonder if that will happen, especially since our district’s last day is 5/29.

    It’s a weird, weird time.

  2. One week at a time is a good way to look at this. I’m trying not to put timelines on anything. I guess the one thing infertility taught us is how to deal with uncertainty, and take things one day or week or month (usually month, right?) at a time. Just checking in on you, and sending hugs.

  3. It is so very very very hard. It is scary. It could have been different.
    But it isn’t.
    It is hard to ground ourselves in reality. You and the honesty of your writing and the clean expressions of how difficult it is to understand when what you see is different from what is seen in other places was super helpful.
    What you saw is what is being seen in MANY communities across this nation where people are NOT seeing any positive test results in their counties. So it feels unreal, the restrictions un-needed here, and then they believe the people who said and did things ignoring science; and now they seem to be believing the excuses and newer lies. And, because you reasonably used your experience, I can now understand better how some are using their experiences and reaching such different conclusions from mine.
    It all scares the ever-loving world out of me. Like you, I am trying to focus on this precise second and not the unknowable longer haul. And, it is so hard.
    Trying to be gentle with ourselves. Trying to not guess ahead. Mali about the similarity to infertility is right. I continued through that. You did too. We can do this also. A day at a time. Hopefully without NYCity or Italy’s experiences.
    But, PLEASE keep writing.
    You help keep my nightmares away.
    There is so much that will not be happening in my world and then I take a big breath and hope that so many horrible things that could be coming will actually not happen because we social distance and isolate. There are children who will continue to have parents, we will see courage in everyday living up close. We can learn from examples around us of teachers pouring their hearts and time into taking care of students, medical people putting their own risks aside to help others, grocery checkers who show up so others have food, people who continue to pay for services they are not getting because of rules but who understand those providers still need income. We can resurrect the American behavior that says we are all in this together and we support each other in hard times.
    Thank you for being who you are and holding hands and supporting so many people in such a storm. Thank you for who you are raising your children to be. Thank you for educating and sharing with us. Your post of yesterday and today are so important. They share what we all feel and what we need to remember when we are being our most human selves.
    I had not realized before how terrified I am of my family being in a hospital tent in Golden Gate Park … Like my family that lived in camps there after the 1906 wiggle and fire. But, realizing it, I can remind myself that we have not yet come to that and that by doing what I have been asked and told to do maybe that scenario will not happen. YOU GAVE ME HOPE and DETERMINATION to avoid temptations. THANK YOU.

  4. We got the news earlier this week that our district’s schools will not be resuming classes this year, and I cannot imagine how the teachers must be feeling. We were out for spring break when all of the restrictions and school closures started in our start, so the teachers last saw their students just before they left for break, when they likely had no clue that they wouldn’t be returning.

    This is a tough time for everyone, and we are all just trying hard to get through it.

  5. One day at a time. I can do this. You can do this. We can do this.
    Blast those people who choose to not cooperate, and now things are closing in more on all of us.
    You are doing this, I can too. Or people die.
    Our numbers are not doubling as fast as they might be. We are doing this. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.
    PROUD OF US!!!!!!

    THANK YOU for the support!

  6. I am sorry. It is heartwrenching. My mother is a teacher in VT and they announced they will not be returning to school however they have put in place a two week buffer the following school year to close out with classes, perform graduation ceremonies and to have closure on this school year. I think it is a very reasonable way to end things before the new school year begins the beg of September. Our state has yet to make that announcement however I am sure it is coming. Currently they keep extending every 2-4 weeks.

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