Working out (then and now)

I have been working out regularly for decades. That is pretty crazy to say, since working out has never been required by any part of my life. I have just always prioritized it consistently, since my early 20s, when I realized how important it was for my emotional (and physical!) health.

Of course it has looked different over the years. In high school I swam competitively. A torn rotator cuff put an end to swimming, but later I ran (I’ve run a marathon and a few halfs) cycled (I’ve ridden several centuries and one two-day, 180 mile ride). I rock climbed regularly at an indoor gym for many years. I’ve done spinning and kick boxing and Pilates classes at gyms. We’ve had an elliptical at the house since we moved here (12 years ago) and I’ve had a (used) Peloton bike for a couple years. I started doing strength classes, first with DVDs and then with streaming services – BeachBody and now Peloton – since the pandemic. And I’ve been practicing martial arts for nine years.

For 20+ years I’ve always been doing something, usually a combination of cardio and strength, at least four days a week. These days I’m working out five days a week, and I have to admit that lately my motivation has been waning. This summer I was doing several 45-60 minute bike bootcamp or strength classes a week. Now I rarely manage a 45 minute class and 60 minutes of exercise has become pretty rare.

But I’m still working out five times a week. Usually that looks like at least one 30-45 minute Bike Boot Camp (or Intervals & Arms rids), one 30 minute Strength class with a 10 minute Lanebreak ride on the bike to warm up, 1-2 days of 2-3 hours of training at the dojo, and one run (or elliptical) day.

I never work out in the mornings, because that would necessitate waking up before 5am and I just can’t fall asleep early enough to make that feasible. Even on the weekends I usually workout in the afternoon or evening, excepting my three hour (12-3pm) Saturday training block at the dojo and if I run on Sunday that usually happens by 1pm.

I try to work out right when I get home, so I’m done before the kids and husband are back from school and work. That can only happen if I don’t have an errand to run after work, but when I know I have the opportunity to get my workout done earlier, I make sure I have a class “stacked” in the Peloton app. Knowing what I’m going to do well before it’s time to do it, really helps me get started promptly.

If I don’t manage to work out right when I get home, it usually doesn’t happen until a lot later, at 7, 8 or even 9pm. I don’t love working out that late, but it does happen. This is possible now because my kids are old enough to do their bedtime routines without much prompting, so even if I’m the only adult at home, I can squeeze in a workout right before my kids go to bed.

The elliptical machine is upstairs in our living room. It takes up the entire wall at the front of the house, against the windows.

The Peloton bike lives in the downstairs kitchen (our bedroom is a 400 sq ft inlaw unit behind the garage that has it’s own small kitchen, which we use to store extra food (our real kitchen has no real pantry) and our Peloton bike!

I do strength training classes in our bedroom, where I rollout a 4x6ft mat (this is new and is a GAME CHANGER! Highly recommend over a regular-sized yoga mat) and pull out 5-20lb weights that live in boxes under a storage bench.

I play classes on my computer, or if it I s a Bike Boot Camp, I cast the bike’s screen to a Roku stick on a $90 monitor that has speakers, because there wasn’t enough space in the kitchen next to the bike to do strength exercises.

View of downtown San Francisco (and the Bay Bridge) from San Bruno Mountain Park.

I run pretty much only in parks or on trails. My favorites are San Bruno Mountain Park, near my house and Sawyer Camp Trail near my work.

Sawyer Camp Trail runs along my Crystal Springs Reservoir, maybe my favorite place in the bay.

There is also a 3 mile loop behind a subdivision near my work that the local junior colleges keep up for cross country meets that I really like, and of course the two mile stretch of the Great Highway where I run and my kids ride their bikes.

Path along the Great Highway before they closed the actual highway for good.

Besides a couple other random spots that I visit very infrequently, those are the main four places that I run. My runs are generally 40-60 minutes, so around 4-6 miles. I prefer to run on my way home from work (I pack running clothes and shoes and change before I leave), or on Sundays if the weather is nice in the city. I do have to time my runs around eating, because if I eat anything substantial within two hours of running I’ll get a side stitch.

I’m not quite sure why maintaining an exercise regimen for so long has been so “easy” for me. I never stop exercising regularly, it just isn’t an option for me. I’m not sure quite why that is, it just feels like the way I’m wired. The question is never, will I exercise, it’s when and how will I exercise.

Having said that, there are days when I really don’t want to do whatever I’m slated to do. Sometimes I’ll switch things up and pick another class, or jump on the elliptical (where I can also write a post) instead of doing a more intense class on the bike. Sometimes I skip the dojo and do a shorter class at home. I try to honor my “whims,” because I know it helps me maintain consistency. I am good about getting in 2-3 days of strength work a week, but there is variability in what that looks like. Having different options does help.

I feel like there is more I could say about how I workout, but nothing else is coming to me. If you have any questions let me know, and I’ll answer them in the comments or write another post.

Do you workout regularly? Have you started and stopped doing so over the years? What has, and hasn’t, worked for you when it comes to exercise?

Emotional Hang Over

My friend’s memorial was Sunday. I will admit that I had been dreading it. I just knew I was going to cry the whole time.

And I did cry. A lot But I also talked a lot, with people I haven’t seen in many years. It was nice to see them again, even though we all wished it were under different circumstances.

My friend was an amazing person who touched many, many lives. She died suddenly, and relatively young, and we were all there to remember her and to try to make sense of the fact that she’s no longer with us. It was hard.

I was also reminded that I am an important part of the lives of many people, even people I don’t see much anymore. I appreciated being reminded of that.

Monday I had a pretty bad emotional hang over. My eyes were so puffy it looked like I’d been punched. I was mortified walking to the eye doctor’s – I would have cancelled if I weren’t so desperate for a new pair of glasses. My face didn’t look normal until well into the afternoon.

I was really glad it was a three day weekend.

I took the husband to the airport around 1:30pm. He has been very supportive of me this past week; I’ve been kind of a basket case with the memorial service looming. I was sadder to see him go than I expected. It has felt empty and lonely in the house without him.

I appreciated the weather though. We had our first rain storm, and the dark, wet, weather matched my mood. I got my flu and Covid shots at Kaiser on the way home (they STILL couldn’t fill the 15yo’s ADHD prescription) and stopped at Costco to stock up on freezer foods. Once I got home, I put on cozy pj pants and reveled in our first rain storm of the season.

I made a ton of pumpkin pancakes for the 11yo’s lunches. I vacuumed and changed my sheets. I graded two sets of group projects. I finished up the week’s plans in all the classes (which I had started at swim yesterday). I planned all the afternoons this week, so I know what I’m expecting to accomplish each day. I helped the kids make their lunches. I PUT THE CANS OUT.

Now I’m working out, which wasn’t originally on the docket, but I realized during my planning session that going to the dojo tomorrow wasn’t really going to work for me. I’ll take the 11yo for his class, but staying for my class will be too hard, so I’m working out tonight instead. Honestly, I should have known I was going to work out because I can’t sleep in clean sheets without taking a shower. And I don’t take a shower unless I work out…

Yes, I’m a bit of a weirdo.

It’s going to be a long week without the husband. Luckily I thought to get some gum and candy for the 11yo’s party favors while I was at Costco. I can’t believe his party is this coming Sunday, and that I’m throwing it by myself. We usually have his friend party AFTER his actual birthday, not before. It’s really throwing me for a loop.

I have a couple of posts partially done. I hope to get them up later this week. So far I’ve hit my posting every-other-day goal pretty consistently, and we’re almost half way through the month.

Last week was long with parent/teacher conferences every afternoon and the memorial service looming. This week will be short, at least work wise, and I’m leaning hard into that when things feel stressful. I’m also reminding myself that it’s okay if we don’t make it to something. I have my first teeth cleaning with the kids’ dentist on Wednesday, but otherwise everything is “optional.” and that’s okay.

Cat Pictures

Daria asked what working out looks like for me these days and I started that post, but then realized I want to post pictures of my strength set up, so I’m going to push that post to early next week, and instead put up some pictures of my cats, because they are a huge part of my life, even though I don’t write about them much. I honestly don’t know what we’d do without them, they are the stars of the show each and every day.

Sleepy Serval. No one takes a nap like this cat.
Panther loves to play.
Two trouble makers.
Oh hey!
Serval is so cute.

Panther likes to climb into my sweatshirt, while Ike wearing it, and then peek her head out the arm or neck hole.

Bwahahah
Panther sometimes climbs into the 11yo’s pillow case.
Sometimes I let Serval have a dryer ball and he absolutely destroys it.
Once I brought my workout mat upstairs and the immediately started attacking each other one it.
Panther likes to jump onto our shoulders and hang out up there. It’s hilarious.
These cats take full advantage of all the cat trees and toys, which I love. Our last cat wanted nothing to do with official cat accoutrement.

I hope you enjoyed some cat pictures, because there are few things in this world I enjoy more than my cats.

Quick, random updates

I was going to have this up early Friday but then the kitchen sink wasn’t getting hot water and I had to spend over an hour fixing it. But I did fix it! And it doesn’t leak! So yay for saving $300+!

And then Friday happened and now it’s 8pm. Blerg.

This week was parent conferences at work and I’m SO GLAD it’s over. I hate the 35 minute classes. I don’t love talking to parents and students all afternoon. It’s the longest, most exhausting week and I’m so happy it’s in my rear view.

The 11yo’s final baseball game of the middle school season was Wednesday. I collected money from families for coaches’ gifts. I bought eight pizzas and a flat of Gatorades at Costco. I delivered it all to the game and the kids and families were happy and grateful. When I got home I promptly emptied the baseball backpack and packed his regular backpack and thanked all that is good in the world that I wouldn’t have to pack his cleats and gloves and mitt with his school stuff again this school year.

The husband leaves for Amsterdam on Monday and he found out earlier this week that there was a black tie dinner in the programming. He doesn’t have a tux, and he doesn’t buy things much, so I had to provide a significant amount of support as he decided if he should rent in Amsterdam or buy immediately at home, and then where and what he should but and then how he should return what didn’t fit him great and finally today he has an ensamble he’s happy with and I’m breathing a big sigh of relief.

This Sunday is the memorial service for our good family friend. My mom is speaking. I know I’m going to cry the whole time, for literal hours. I’m kind of worried that it will be an issue when I get my eyes checked on Monday, because crying for 4+ hours does a number on my eyes. I hope I can still figure out my new prescription.

I put up my Day of the Dead decorations, including my ofrenda. A picture of my friend is on it and it’s hard to see her all day every day, but it’s also good to have her close. There are moments sometimes when I think I see her in the world and I have this weird feeling like, “oh I thought I lost that but it’s right there!” and then I realize that a part of my brain thought it was her and another part knew it couldn’t be her and I’m just gutted. Once I even whispered her name I was so sure I had seen her. But of course it wasn’t her.

Sunday is going to be so hard.

Mess ups and mock ups

Last night I forgot to take the cans out, which is kind of really bad because our trash can barely fits one week’s worth of trash and could never accommodate two week’s worth (it has a false bottom, so it’s only half as deep as it looks), and our recycle bin has been smelling rank all week.

I was so mad at myself when I woke up. I have never forgotten to take the cans out. Never. Why did I forget last night?!

I ended up triple bagging the trash and taking it in my car down to work where I quietly threw it into our dumpster. Definitely not allowed, but I don’t regret it. We’re going to have to deal with the rank smell in the recycle bin for a week longer…

Tonight I spent some time on a Spirit Week flier that I’m really liking. I want our school to have more spirit this year, and I think this will be a decent way to kick start it.

I love October and I know a lot of kids do too. I hope this week is fun, and that yearbook gets lots of pictures! I just put up my Día de los Muertos decorations at school, so I’m feeling ready.

Playing tourist

The husband wanted to stop by an event at Pier 39 on Saturday (unofficially, but for work), so we all took BART to the F-line up the Embarcadero and walked around in what is probably the most touristy area of San Francisco. It was a beautiful day and we had a better time than I expected. Here are some photos from our time as tourists.

Pier 39 flag with Alcatraz in the distance.
Alcatraz up close.
The sea lions, with the Ferris wheel in the background.
Salesforce tower, Coit tower and the Transamerica building – SF’s three most famous buildings all in a row. I didn’t know there was a spot where it seems like they all stand side by side like this.
The F-line train we took home.
It was originally from St. Louis! (Some of them are originally from international cities.)
This one was from Newark, NJ. The F-line trains are the only mobile national monuments.
The Ferry Building.
I’m not sure what is up with this giant metal woman, but I kind of love when she is lit up.
A SF heart with a cable car in the heart!

A fabulous Friday

I ended up sleeping at my parents’ house last night – with my cousin – so I got to sleep in until 8:45am. We went for a 7 mile hike along the coast, then ate fish tacos. We showed up for the 11yo’s baseball game just as they won (their first win all season!), then had another amazing meal in the city. It was a great day, and I’m so happy to took it off.

I love where I live.
Seriously. It’s so beautiful.

Primero de octubre

Fun fact, in Spanish they use the counting numbers (2, 3, 4) instead of the ordinal numbers (2nd, 3rd, 4th) to say the date, EXCEPT for the first of the month, when they do say “primero.”

Other fun fact, they do not capitalize the names of the months (or days of the week!) in Spanish.

At the beginning of the year we do the “calendario” at the start of each 6th and 7th grade class. I am always VERY aware of the date at the beginning of the year.

I’ve been excited to finally move into October. September was LONG. And frenetic. I also love October. The weather is generally nice (less foggy in the city). We get a day off mid-month (Indigenous People’s Day). My room is decorated for Día de los Muertos, which I spend three weeks teaching. The pumpkin flavored foods are out in abundance. And of course, the grand finale, HALLOWEEN! I love dressing up! I love costumes! I love Halloween!

This week has been… meh, but there have been bring spots! I booked the 11yo’s birthday party for the Sunday before his birthday (I’ll be hosting it without the husband) at a trampoline park down by my work. The whole party (two hours at the place plus food) cost $380. The six kids the 11yo invited can all come, and my friend is letting me borrow her SUV so I can drive all seven kids down there myself in one car. It actually worked out really nicely and I’m SO RELIEVED that its planned.

The husband grabbed copious amounts of pumpkin stuff at TJs and I’ve been reveling in toasted pumpkin brioche topped with pumpkin cream cheese.

My cousin is in town tomorrow and Friday. We’re going to Downtown First Thursdays tomorrow, and spending a couple free hours at the SFMoMA before getting dinner. Friday I’m taking the day, and my cousin and I will meet my parents at the coast for a hike followed by fish tacos. Then we’ll have dinner and drinks with my husband in the city.

Right now I’m stressed getting sub plans written and my classroom ready to be fumigated over the weekend (it may have fleas! NOOOO!) but I know that by tomorrow evening I’ll be having fun.

Also, baseball is over in a week! WOOOT! I’m so ready for baseball to be over.

I’m toying with the idea of posting every other day in October, to get ready for NaBloPoMo in November. Do you think I can do it? I don’t either, but I might as well try. ;D

Seven on Sunday: Whats working and what’s not

What’s working right now

Scheduling wins. I was able to make an eye appointment on the Monday I have off in October. I assumed they would also be closed, but they were not, and had a ton of availability. I didn’t have to teach Teens last Saturday when I needed to get the 11yo to a baseball game at the same time. The next day I was able to go to book club and attend the memorial service for a family friend, even though my husband was still out of town. I got a sub for this coming Friday when my cousin is in town. It’s nice when things work out.

Purchases. After a spendy August, I told myself no superfluous spending in September. Then I proceeded to… buy a bunch of shit. And in my attempts to avoid Amazon (I still spend way too much on Amazon, unfortunately) I’ve been trying to buy stuff from other sites. But most of it ends up coming from China (which is NOT made clear, and sometimes is actively hidden on the sites, which I swear are not shady looking!) and is hard to return. Quite a few of these have been shoe purchases (I’m trying hard to aggravate the ::whispers barely audibly:: bunion). One pair was even a no returns, final sale purchase, and they’ve all fit! It’s honestly kind of astounding. I know I’m pushing my luck and I’m going to stop now for real, but I’m thankful I haven’t wanted to return any of them.

I’ve also gotten some toe spacers that I’m wearing for a couple hours every night now, with new super minimalist, zero drop sandals (I used to wear cloud slides that squished my toes together). I can definitely feel my toes and feet stretching, and I’ve even noticed my ankles and knees feel less tight. I plan to keep wearing them, and maybe to start training at the dojo in them.

Work. Work is going pretty well. I have a few challenging students, but there is no class that I already dread seeing. I really like the two, smaller, 8th grade classes, even though one has a lot of “excessive socializing.” I’m reading two books the admin suggested we check out – one about disengaged learners and one about Universal Design for Learning which is supposed to allow teachers to present content in ways that engage disengaged learners. I’m excited to apply what I’m learning to my free reading program, which I hope to morph into more of a free comprehensible input program that give students a lot more freedom to choose what form their comprehensible input takes.

I committed to yearbook again (I promise it will be different this year!) and 66 kids came to the first meeting! I’m making meeting agendas and they will be signing expectation contracts and we’re going to start designing the first pages soon (the PTA sponsored an ice-cream social on Friday afternoon and a lot of kids came). I”m actually really excited about yearbook right now, and I think it’s going to be a good year.

What’s not working

The 11yo’s birthday party. We’re late planning it. His birthday is on a Wednesday and his good friend (whose birthday is right after his) already sent out invitations for the Saturday after his birthday so we’re not sure when to schedule it (the husband is gone the weekend before his birthday). We’re not excited about any of the options. We’ve begrudgingly (process of elimination) landed on a trampoline park. The one in the city costs $500 for 1.5 hours (30 minutes to eat and 1 hour of play). It’s $900 for two hours, which is a no go for me. They do provide the food and do set up and clean up but still! That is a lot! It’s stressing me out, and I feel like even after we solidify plans I won’t feel satisfied. Blerg.

My skin. Did I mention that I don’t actually have rosacea like I thought, but instead have perioral dermatitis, which are red bumps around the mouth and nose that can spread to the cheeks. This actually makes sense, as I don’t get the red flushing of rosacea and my bumps are frequently itchy. The treatments are basically the same, but I think mine are a little complicated because what works for around my mouth and nose seems to aggravate my cheeks. I’ve been in a flair since school started, which means stress probably makes it worse. I do appreciate seeing the dermatologist a while back and learning the name of what I actually have; many of the treatments are the same, but perioral dermatitis is aggravated by some different factors, which I’m trying hard to avoid.

And eyes. My glasses are giving me tension headaches and I swear my vision has gotten much worse since summer. Maybe it’s just that when I wear my glasses for ten hours a day and then take them off, I’m more aware of how badly I see without them? I will admit that I don’t wear my glasses much in the summer, and that might be part of the problem. I am very glad I got that eye appointment in couple weeks so I can get a new prescription and order a new pair of glasses.

The 11yo’s middle school transition. Baseball every afternoon for 1.5+ hours has been a lot. The amount of homework he is getting in Math has been a lot. His negative feelings toward his Math/Science teacher has been a lot. He struggles with emotional regulation on a good day, so helping him manage all this has been A LOT. More than I feel like I can manage on some days. It’s exhausting and I’m really looking forward to the end of baseball season (the last game is in two weeks).

I could add “blogging” to the not working list, but I don’t have the energy to examine why I’m struggling so much to show up here, and to read and comment on other blogs. It’s the beginning of the school year and that transition is always hard. I’m sleeping less, and tried a lot earlier every night. I have less free time and less brain space when I do have twenty minutes to write. I started this post as a “Six on Saturday” yesterday morning, and I’m not vacuuming before the 11yo’s swim class so I can finish it. Blerg. I’m going to put it up now, or it will never happen.

Monday Musings…

Is it insane for me to just jump back in with some thoughts on my last post, which went up over a week ago? Probably, but I’m going to do it anyway.

First of all, please know that I am NOT making any kind of fancy dinner. Whatever easy dinner you’re thinking in your head I should make, I’m already making that. Or something even simpler. The kitchen is not my forte, so even simple things are a little stressful for me to execute…

The Tuesday after that post ended up being pretty low key. I specifically didn’t push myself to go to the dojo, and instead stayed home. I didn’t even workout (I moved it to Wednesday). And I realized when I went to bed, that being much less rushed, and staying home instead of spending a few hours at the dojo, didn’t make me feel a lot better at the end of the day. I was still tired and worn out, I just had a lot less to point to when I looked to explain why I felt that way.

I’m not saying that means I should embrace the schedules that provide no room for error and leave me gasping for breath at the end of the day. But I need to remember that an evening at home, with my kids and my husband, is still exhausting even when I’m not playing time Tetris.

Tonight (Monday) my husband comes home from a four day, three night trip to Philadelphia. He was at an experimental music festival. Just for shits and giggles. He went by himself and saw hours and hours of experimental music in weird cave tunnels. I just can’t fathom wanting to do that. It’s so funny how someone you know and love can enjoy something that you would absolutely NOT want to do. Like ever.

I have to admit, it’s kind of nice when my husband is away. The best thing is, I know exactly what to expect, at least on the home front. I don’t have to wonder if anything is going to get done by anyone else but myself. It means I do more work, but also that I’m never disappointed or resentful that I have to do it. It’s easier to plan meals when my husband is not here, especially for myself. It’s a lot easier to go to bed and wake up, and to sleep, since he snores really loudly! I kind of love sleeping alone, I’d have to go a lot of days before I’d miss my husband in my bed. (Is this a very bad thing to admit? I don’t know if I’d realized it before, but it’s true). I had two work mornings where I could just turn on the light instead of fumbling around with my phone, and I reveled in them! It was also lovely to fall asleep to my sound machine masking silence and not snoring.

Of course my in-laws came and helped the 11yo get to school on time. I thought he would say he could manage himself, but he requested their presence. I think it was probably more for the ride to school than anything else… Mornings are definitely the time when the husband’s presence is most appreciated.

The husband and I have been pretty disconnected these past few weeks. The start of the school year has been stressful and he’s been in a (self expressed) funky mood. That definitely made his absence a little sweeter.

The best part of him being gone this past weekend, is that I got NO sulking when I came back from my trip two weeks ago because he knew he’d be gone the exact same amount of time. I REALLY appreciated that. I am so rarely gone, but when I am, he handles it pretty poorly. And it makes me crazy because even though he doesn’t travel much, he travels exponentially more than I do. So yeah. It was nice that our trips were close enough for him to keep any feelings of overwhelm to himself.

He’s also going to be gone for a week in October, and I’m kind of looking forward to it! Although that trip is right before the 11yo’s birthday, so it will be more stressful.

The weekend was full, for me, in a way that reminded me that I can’t do too much in just two days or I start to shut down. Everything I did was sans-kids too, so you’d think it would be energizing, but I was still exhausted come Sunday evening. My extrovertedness is so much less pronounced these days.

The 11yo came home sick again today. He threw up at school, then seemed pretty much fine when he got home. This is the second time this has happened this school year. Last night he had a meltdown, crying that he hated school and homework and was too busy with something every day of the week. It’s hard not to connect those two events, and assume he made himself sick today (not necessarily consciously, it totally could have been anxiety or a subconscious mechanism).

I REALLY hope this doesn’t become a recurring thing. I have a friend whose been managing her child’s severe school avoidance for years. They even went to a three week day-program for it! School aversion is so hard to treat, and I know I would handle it very badly. I was never really allowed to miss school for even physical sickness (I had perfect attendance for SIX YEARS), the idea of taking a mental health day off from school was not even fathomable. Like I couldn’t have conceived of it if you told me people did it, I’d have been so confused. ANYWAY, I’m spiraling right now – two instances does not a recurring problem make – but I can definitely feel myself holding my figurative breath, wondering when it’s going to happen again…

I started to write some stuff about work, but I think it will be best to just shut this post down here. I’ll try to write more later this week… I’m really struggling to find times when I have both the space in my schedule and the brain power to articulate thoughts… But this week seems a little lighter than last week. I’ve been to both my kids’ Back to School Nights, and the 11yo only has one baseball game this week. Maybe I can make another post happen! (No promises though. 😉