Ridiculous Disconnects

For some reason, I spent all of last month thinking that it would be darker in the morning after the time changed. I knew it would get darker earlier in the afternoon too, which means it makes no sense for it to get darker in morning, and yet that is what I was expecting. This morning I was so disoriented by how light it was, I kept thinking I was getting to work super late.

This happens to me a lot – the holding of two pieces of contradictory information and not realizing that one makes the other impossible. It happens the most with scheduling conflicts. I’ll think about two events being at the same time FOR A WEEK before I realize that THEY ARE AT THE EXACT SAME TIME and I can’t possibly attend both. I’ll think something like, I’m looking forward to the staff part this Friday a million times, while also, at different times thinking, I can’t believe I have to be at this soccer thing on Friday and it will not occur to me for SO LONG that both are at exactly the same time so I can only manage to attend one. These ridiculous disconnects make me so frazzled, I think I spend a lot of my life managing the underlying anxiety I feel that I have not identified a disconnect in time to make things right.

I think a lot of my underlying anxiety is a latent worry that I’ve forgotten something important. It’s not an awesome way to live.

3 Comments

  1. At least in this case it was a welcome surprise to feel more rested in the morning and have it light on the way to work, right? 🙂

  2. YES. I too have done that. Makes me feel SO SILLY. But then I laugh at me and move forward. Luckily I have always sorted it out in time to change A or B.
    Goodness I wish we could go to ONE TIME ALL YEAR. NO clock changing please. The fall change is maybe easier but I dislike it anyway.
    Sending wishes for a happy week to all.

  3. Do you have a calendar where you could write down all of your events and actually see that those two things are at the same time?

    Wish daylight savings time would go away. I hate hard dark it is at night!

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