I suppose I made it through the month without losing my shit, since it didn’t officially happen until this morning. So, yay me?
I really f*cking hate crying at work. I hate it with a passion.
At least it was during my prep, and I can always blame my red eyes on allergies.
I just have to get through five periods. I can totally get through five periods. I. can. do. this.
I started a new practice where every morning, after meditation, I vow to myself that I will refrain from blaming my negative emotions on other people or circumstances.
It has been a surprisingly enlightening experience. It really helps me put a little distance between my upset and the situation I believe is causing it. I still feel the full force of my emotions, but when they aren’t tied to something or someone I feel I can blame, they resolve much more quickly. It also helps me become aware of the attachments that are fueling my anger or sadness. What expectation is not being fulfilled? What specific outcome was I attached to and why? Without blame I can see my reactions for what they are, and respond to them more appropriately.
I will refrain from blaming my negative emotions on other people or circumstances.
It’s hard to remember, but always enlightening when I do.